Is it so bad that I question his true existence sometimes? Is it bad that I sometimes doubt if he truly exists or not? I feel as though God isn't always there when I need him the most. He Didn't seem to be there when my ex broke my heart into many pieces. Since then, I have not truly recovered. I still put on that same old social mask, just for different reasons this time. I still go about every day hiding my true feelings from most of the people I speak to. I do t share my feelings in public. It's gotten worse than what it was before. I feel broken and not like myself. It's like that crumbled wall around my heart has suddenly re-built itself and is even stronger than before. But yet, at the same time, I feel as though it's easier to tell people how I feel about my heartbreak. I don't know what is going on inside of my head anymore. It's like a war is raging inside me and not only do I not know what it's about and what it's for, but I also don't know who is fighting for what. I hope all is well soon. It's affecting every aspect of my everyday life. My school work is suffering from it, as well as my family life and social life. It needs to end, and soon... But is He really there?
Is He Really There?
October 16, 2012