I spent four hours today baking a cake for my mom, and making a cheesecake for my friend for her birthday. I'm leaving for culinary school in less than three months. I loved baking today, but I feel exhausted. I didn't sit down until four hours after I started the baking. I was so mentally drained that I started crying when I sat down. Is this really what I want to feel like at the end of each day? Maybe it will get easier, who knows. All I know is that I can't go through with daily mental exhaustion that came with my breakdown today. I don't know what to do.
Is this what I really want?
June 12, 2012