Daydreaming can be a seed to grow hopefulness and self-assurance. After daydreaming up unlikely fantasies, and only few coming true, I begin to become angry with myself for giving myself false hope. But what makes it all worth it are those few times when the yearning for my dream sparks a determination that kindles itself into reality. This has proved to be the basis and cause for some of my greatest senses of accomplishment. I have not yet come to the conclusion though if extremes of dreaming and planning amazing situations is worth the heartbreak that overwhelms me when not even my strongest waves of determination can bring them true. I can not decide if living vicariously through dreams is good or only bound to set me up for unforgettable disappointment and heartache. So far, I find that those few times when my dreams come true make it all worth it.
April 20, 2012