Floated. Drifted. Snuck. Lied, cheated, manipulated. I’ve done it all. I’ve been the fly on the wall and the vault of secrets. I’ve done whatever it took to break in to every social circle imaginable. I eat lunch with the nerds, hang out after school with the popular kids, I mix with the gossipy girls and get the dirt on everyone. So, why can’t I worm my way into them? Being a guy makes it a little harder sure, but it’s never presented much of a challenge before. All things considering, I’ve done pretty well; no outsider has gotten anywhere near the level I have, but it’s still not enough. They stick to themselves, they have their own inside jokes that are 3 years strong, they all share each other’s secrets and there are no drifters. There’s no one I can make friends with and use to get in. I don’t want to just be friends with them but know everything… Their secrets, their histories. I want to know them better than they know themselves, just like I do with everyone else. But I can’t. They are impenetrable and I only have a year left. I only have a year to get in before college makes it a worthless endeavor. I best get going. I have a lot to do.
March 6, 2012