I'm sick of the doctors calling. Trying to tell me other ways they can fix my pain or help it. I'm sick of the pain that comes making me feel like I'm going to die. I'm sick of the incomplete answers. People not knowing the pain i go through. Not even knowing what to do. It comes out of no where. when I least expect it. Stupid pain. Please go AWAY. Tensed up not being able to breathe. This comes to me. Wondering if it will be an episode or just a pain. Doctors say it's not common. Some compare it to a heart attack. The way you feel like someone is stabbing you. It's just costochondritis kicking in. You wouldn't think it would be so much pain...but it is. Taking medicine everyday hoping and praying it will make it better. Sometimes it does and other times it doesn't. I was freaked out at first. But after a while you get used to it. it becomes part of you.
June 8, 2011