My life has been nothing but great memories, and is stored in one giant folder, however when I try to open up to people I just freeze up like a computer and never become unfrozen unless someone presses my Ctrl.,Alt, and delete keys to restart me. I wish I could be more open, but no matter how hard I try to open up in front of people I just end up frozen again. My hearts' decision ends up taking over and I cannot talk even if I really, truly want to. I really would like to be more open towards people and have embarrassing moments, and maybe even fail a test or two, but even if I don't try I still end up passing. I mean, I don't study, I never have and I won't start. My life will never be the way I want it because apparently my heart does not want me to have those moments, but instead wants me to be smart and thoughtful. It never lets my brain into the picture because my heart always wants to be first.
Opening up to people
April 27, 2011