Walk Away | Teen Ink

Walk Away

April 8, 2011
By Anonymous

Behind each human face is a hidden world that no one can see.
We cannot continue to seek outside ourselves for the things we need from within.
The demons will haunt us if we remain afraid. John O'Donohue
If you always watch the demons behind you, then you will never see the angels ahead
Kahlil Gibran

I spent the past three weeks

Trying to prepare myself for this

But as much as I tried to meet this thing

Head on, I didn’t think I would feel this way

I didn’t think I would feel this crushed, this
Angry, this sad, this confused, this helpless.



I didn’t think it would feel like getting a slap

In the face. I didn’t think it would feel like
Taking a punch to the stomach.

I didn’t know I would feel this way
He just gets to walk away from this



He got away with it
He knows it, and so do I
And it kills me, because he’s won again
He knows it, he knows

He’s won again. Because he can just

Walk away, he will probably think about
It for awhile, but eventually he will forget
About it, and all of it will be is a mistake
He made, and it will be in his past.

Eventually he will forget about it.

But I won’t, it’s a memory I won’t forget



It kills me that he is able to just walk away

it kills me that right now I can’t walk away



But one day maybe I will be able to
One day I’ll be able to look back on this
And hopefully by then it will have

Made me stronger, a better person.
In the end maybe I’ll realize that he may
Have won two days out of my life
But I’ve won a lot more
I’ve won all the other days

And I’ll continue to win them


Because every day I try to put one

Foot in front of the other and walk, because he doesn’t deserve to win another day, I do


The author's comments:
When I was ten years old my babysitter raped me. He told me that if I ever told anyone he would kill me. And now seven years later I am just know speaking up about it. I feel like writing my feelings down has helped

Similar Articles

JOIN THE DISCUSSION

This article has 0 comments.