Here I am almost and "adult" gosh when did I even stop saying grown-up? How did this happen? When I was younger I thought that being an adult was about not making any more mistakes and never being afraid, I'm not gonna lie I feel kinda gypped why did my parent let me believe that? I suppose i know why but again here i am almost an adult and i can feel the mistakes to come anxious about them before i even make them so many decisions to be made each one can be the future biggest mistake of my life so full of fear i can feel it boiling over this is what it really is fear and doubt and laying awake at night wondering what the hell you are going to do with your life. All I can do is hope that I'll have the strength to make the right decisions and have the resilience to overcome the wrong ones i guess that is what it really means to be an adult. Well time to grow up I guess happy birthday to me.
March 20, 2011