I can't believe this is happening.
It never seemed possible because I had never known. I had never experienced it or went through it, and it's depressing. How do you go on? How do you carry out your daily routine when something this tragic happens? How do you keep your feelings inside, not letting the outside world see how you truly feel, without exploding? I can't go on feeling this way, but yet i have no feeling about it at all. My mind, body, and soul are numb. When your family is mourning, but you just want to forget about it, knowing it's the only way to feel better. I'm oblivious to what's happening in the world around me. Someone has wiped my emotional slate clean and I can't remember how to feel. I may look happy on the outside, but it's all an act. Inside I feel nothing. Inside I feel nothing. But, It's not just the loss of a family member or even two. It's so much more than that. Everything, my whole world is crumbling around me, and I have no way to stop it.