To look into a persons eyes while they are dying, especially your own brothers is the most heart breaking sight i have ever seen. It makes heart hurt, my stomach drop and the vile rise, and my entire soul feel murdered. To see it makes my eyes as sour as shoving spikes into them, and needles peirce though my skin, grinding my bones, breaking my teeth, pulling each hair out of my head. It makes my legs burn, my fingers numb, and it chews at me from the inside out, it destroys me and all it took was watching his eyes glaze, the colors fade, the breath cease, and that moment it took to watch him leave.
May 5, 2010