I am surrounded by faces I don’t know. Drowning in pain as they point and laugh. Trying to restrain the tears from swelling up in my eyes. Listening to them talk; I feel stupid, unwanted, and unloved. Trying to be just another face in the crowd, but no they have to talk, tease, and laugh. I’m trying to keep my emotions from escaping my mind. I don’t know where to turn I am being swallowed into a dark hole. I feel like I am nothing. I want to belong, and I just want to be let in. I want to be just like you. Tears fall down my cheeks. Laughing more and more as they see me choking up inside. Get me out! I’m completely alone, by myself, and on my own.
January 9, 2010