If only I can change it. Change my situation. I cant believe how I have to choose. Im like a boat that doesnt know which direction to sail. I want to go with her. But, I dont want to hurt or loose him. I love them both. But, its just such a hard choise. Ughh I dont even know. Its like im a rollercoaster that only goes down forever since the problem pulls me in multiple directions and I dont know which direction to choose. I want to be with both of them at once. I just dont want to choose one or the other. If I choose her, I'll hurt him and if I choose him, I'll hurt her. I don't know what to do anymore. If only I could change my life.