Write Words

August 1, 2011
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Words will not come. I sit here staring at the majority of the page: a daunting white space.

I have twenty-one, now twenty-three, words, and it is not enough.

I want it to fill up my vision, and I want it to do so now. Yet words will not come, and so I write.

Q, W, E, R, T, Y, U… The order of the keyboard has always been so strange to me. I could never come to fully understand why they should be placed in such a way.

On a sheet I have next to me, I scribble a heart, then another, then another… The page is filled with hearts, but the one that is significant is still not halfway filled.

There is a list next to me. It contains 5000 words, good words, words to be known for the SAT.

But none are good enough. It would not make the story if I typed them all onto this page. So I ignore it, ignore those words that tell me I am not even close to being done.

I am a procrastinator.

I am a digresser.

I am a wordless, digressing procrastinator.

It seems right to write the name. It is what I am, for the story will not come and the words will not flow.

They should write themselves for me. I am only at 228, now 230 words, should I count numbers as words.

Really, they are not named words. Should three numbers combining to become one number, like the 2, 2, and 8 combination—should that be sufficient to say they are three numbers? Three words? Or, together as 228, would it only be one?

These questions do not help.

They don’t do a good job of filling the page! I have not gone three quarters! Even a page would suffice! Yet I don’t have my story. Just a girl’s thoughts.

Just thoughts.

Thoughts are not actions… Should a story not have the actions to be a story? It should. It would have the variety and the suspense and the captivation for a reader…

A reader would read and be boggled by the many things one can think of when aiming for another accomplishment.

The story would be blank of what they expect…

I should be ashamed of the ongoing ranting!

I should be embarrassed that I would say such atrocities!

I should be paying attention to the task at hand!

But I am still as I said I was: a wordless, digressing procrastinator.

And I have not come up with an idea or a character or an event… I have not thought of a setting or a time or a location… I have but thoughts.

And now I have filled up the entire page.

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KatsK This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 4, 2012 at 5:25 pm
This is perfect. I'm procrastinating right now; I need to write 2,000 words  to be on track for the novel I'm writing, and it's just not coming! I hate writer's block, as well as my characters. I hope it gets better.
dancemaniac said...
Aug. 24, 2011 at 9:37 pm
great job! totally relatable(:
NinjaGirl This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 21, 2011 at 9:39 am
This is so relatable! I too have issues with writers' block sometimes... I think we all do, actually. Great job!
CarrieAnn13 said...
Aug. 18, 2011 at 11:23 pm
Great job writing about writer's block!  Excellent work, once again! :)
MorenSore said...
Aug. 14, 2011 at 10:07 am
You just put writers block in into words. Those are the literal feelings of writers block.
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