I step outside of my mind for the first time; scared and deciding whether to step back inside or just face the hidden truth. You’re scared but you want to be fearless. The more I think about it the more it seems to hurt me in a negative way. My conscious just isn’t there to tell me how I feel but it is there to let me decide my decisions but I can’t come to the point to where I can. Stepping out of my mind is one step but letting my heart come out is another. I ask myself every day, “What are you really scared of?” Is it life or love…I can’t settle on either answer. Scared of life because anything can happen and scared of love because the pain that is to come whenever something doesn’t go right. The truth is only hidden deep inside of the heart and mind of the girl who hides behind her shadow.
December 19, 2010