I feel like I should write something right now about how I adore and worship and idolize some great person or being in my life. Like this essay should start with some cheesy intro about my parents, or my older siblings, or some famous celebrity or god possibly. Yeah, I could just choose one of those selections for an easy A, all I would have to do is lie a bunch and write some things that are completely against what I believe. But no, this time, i'm going to write something origional. So what if I get a C cause this isn't 'following criteria'.. I dont want to make up some random stuff about some topic that I have no experience in. Well, dear teacher, i dont have an idol. I believe in following my own path, im cannot call myself a non-conformist- we are all conformists' in some way or another. I dont want to say that I am my own idol- that would sound conceited and shallow, but I take pride in what I do- sure, i follow the example of others sometimes, and some more than others, but that doesn't really make them my idol. Then my parents and my friends would be my idol. But their not. I like to be a little rebelious and blaze my own trail sometimes, despite the fact that the community would most likely take it differently. I dont have an Idol. I really dont have anyone to look up to- I tend to find too many faults in others and myself to have an Idol. An Idol is someone who has no faults in your eyes- but doesn't that make them perfect? And there is no such thing as a perfect being, and since I dont believe in god, you cant use 'him' as an excuse. But if an idol is someone you go by, someone whose rule you follow, I guess that my idol would be myself. Once again, I don't mean to sound conceited. But think about it- If I am the one who decides what is right and wrong for me- therefore I go my by own rules, and if I am the one who I see faults and good things in, if I am the one who I look up to when I need advice- but wait, I can't be my own idol. If I can't be my own idol, then who is?
March 7, 2009