I don't know why I feel like this. It's strange. I never felt this way about someone before. Is it love? I dont know. I hope not. I wish I didnt feel this way. He doesnt feel the same. Why? I dont know why. I once had him. I really did! I had him a few times. What happened? I dont know. I dont like to think about it. It causes me too much pain. I hate it. I hate the feeling. I wish I could go back in time. But, I can't. That sucks. So, what do I do? Does anyone know? Can anyone tell me? I dont think so. Nothing will help it seems. Only if I get him. I dont think I will. I hope so. Doubt it. I wish he'll change. I doubt it.