I don't know why it is, but its the thought of you that keeps me up at night. My thoughts are drowning with thoughts of you. Your smile, your laugh,you voice, just seems to remain in my head. I can't seem to remember the last time I felt this way. We didn't talk to eachother for so long. So I don't know what this means. I hope that one day it will come out and show what it truly means for you and me. My sleepness nights keep me from trying to comprehend what is going on. I hope one day I will understand. I hate not knowing whats going on. I hate not knowing what or if its like this for you. All I have is hope that the day of understanding comes soon.Because I need my sleep and my dreams to help me cope with what it might do. I don't want to loose my best friend to something so new. I just want you to be there when I need help getting through. But I think I like the thought of falling in love with you.
September 28, 2007