When I Hated My Body This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

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When I was eleven, I thought my body was disgusting.
It hadn't always been that way.
When I was ten years old I was all right with what my body was.
I ate if I was hungry
and I ran if I wanted to run,
but if I didn't want to run, I didn't,
and it was all right.
Then I began to watch television and I saw girls in music videos
and people began to give me their opinions.
“Wow, she's gotten so … big now.”
And they taught me how to hate myself.
It took me a long time to begin to like myself again.
Piece by piece, picture by picture,
I embraced the plumpness of my calves,
the little crumples of skin around my armpits,
the out-of-line hairs in my eyebrows,
the blotchiness of my skin.
I saw pictures from long ago,
Renaissance and Baroque,
of women
bathing, dressing, staring intensely at the viewer.
They do not have flat stomachs,
their thighs are bubbled,
their breasts do not perk upwards.
They are human
in an honest and all-baring way
and it is what makes them beautiful.
It is what makes me beautiful,
and it is what makes you beautiful,
your humanity and your reality,
in a completely imperfect way.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.






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Livbrown said...
Feb. 21, 2016 at 7:19 pm
This is so good! I used to feel the exact same way. There was a time where I was just so ashamed and didn't come out of my room for awhile. This is a beautiful piece!
 
Positivity_At_Its_FinestThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 8, 2014 at 3:08 pm
great job. i used to be very insecure about myself, then I just started to take better care of myself and now I'm in a way better position. Just be healthy and everything else will fall in line, I'm now confident in who I am and what I look like. :)
 
Caesar123 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 20, 2014 at 9:49 pm
Not bad. I liked it.
 
Call_Me_Aria This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Jul. 21, 2014 at 11:10 am
Thanks ^.^
 
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