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I'm Not Homophobic

December 5, 2018
By madhatter0111 SILVER, Naperville, Illinois
madhatter0111 SILVER, Naperville, Illinois
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When I was 13 it was the middle of the summer, and I was being driven to summer camp in Indiana. this summer I started to come to the realization that I was definitely not straight. at this point in my life I had believed that I was pansexual(now I identify as homosexual or homoflexible) so the way I decided to tell my mother mentioned a past thing she had said to me because I actually had thought that this was quite offensive

my mother has said to me 2 Christmas's ago when I had asked for a pair of heels for Christmas

"thank god, I thought that you were gay"

while at the time I laughed because I thought I was straight.

I started to bring this up and disagree with the statement. I said I like all genders (hearts before parts) I was being shut down. my mother was disagreeing with me. constantly telling me that you don't know what you are saying. 

I was crushed. balling in the car. I had no idea what I had been thinking. I even remember another time when my mom had even told me,

"if you were gay I wouldn't love you the same"

I was defeated.

being gay, I do hella gay stuff on my phone. I would download apps, have backgrounds, and even had a group chat with friends at school. but every time my mom would check my phone I would find more and more things deleted. first youtube, then texts, the google searches, apps, and on, and on, and on. 

one day I was sick of all of this and I go up to my mom and say, 

"what is your problem? why are you so homophobic?"

I get the response that made me feel forced to write this in the first place.

"I'm not homophobic," she said to me

right now it's 12/4/18 and almost midnight

all I want for Christmas is to have a pride flag

I wish I had better luck.


The author's comments:

 Being gay in the straight world, and the homophobic who refuse to accept themselves just like they refuse to accept us 


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on Feb. 25 2019 at 9:40 pm
Marysia PLATINUM, Halifax, Virginia
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A magnificent work! Very eloquent and relatable.