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For the first time in months, I allowed myself to break down. Tears streamed from my eyes and I did not stop them or wipe them away. Sobs racked my core as I doubled over, gasping for air. The solid ground that I once stood on had crumbled beneath my feet, leaving me in an endless freefall toward rock bottom. My friend stroked my hair and repeated that everything would be okay in a reassuring whisper.

The first day of sobriety after two months straight of being on something all the time was the most painful experience I had ever had, both emotionally and physically. Reality came crashing down around me.

The simple fact that I had hurt and driven away every good person in my life was staring me in the face, and for the first time, I was ready to stare back. I was ready to own up to the sick cycle of abuse that I had made of my life.

I was ready to get help. Ready to begin my recovery.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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urworthit said...
Jan. 14 at 11:16 pm:
i really like this poem because this poem applies to lots of people, especially younger people. Stay straight! Keep up with the recovery
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youreawesomeThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Jan. 14 at 11:23 am:
Hey, this is good. I really like the raw emotion - you can't sugarcoat the harsh, but usually necessary, reality of going into any sort of treatment. The ending is has a hopeful feel to it, which is awesome. I hope you're doing well in recovery these days! (:
cmcass replied...
Jan. 14 at 11:41 pm :
thank you so much for your feedback, it really means a lot!
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