Trapped This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

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      I woke up one day and realized that I am not the person I used to be. I’m 16 and trapped in an obese woman’s body. When I was born a month and a half early, I already weighed six pounds. They told my mom it was good that she delivered early for her sake.

The weight gain started when I was six years old. My family has always hated to see food go to waste, and that’s part of the reason I am so overweight. The other is that we don’t get a lot of exercise. My mom said I would go through a growth spurt, and I did, but it didn’t help. The older I got, the heavier I got. The doctor could do nothing because I was so young, so I just watched the numbers on the scale go up and up until I realized I had a serious problem. I tried to lose weight but I’d drop 10 pounds and then gain 20.

By the time I was 13, all I wanted was to be like all the rest of the girls. If you knew the trauma I went through! Kids were so mean that at one point I tried killing myself. Can you imagine getting called fatty and cow every single day? School was hell. My so-called friends would be nice to my face and then talk about me like all the other kids did. To this day I do not trust my friends. I’m used to being hurt, and I’m trying really hard to be strong.

I saw the other girls with boyfriends and felt so left out, but then I learned you don’t need a guy to make you feel happy. That’s why you have friends. My only true friend was God. He was the only one who would listen to how I felt. To this day He is helping me stay strong.

I got a big wake-up call when I could barely fit into the desks at school last year. It was so embarrassing. But now I am a sophomore and can slide in and out of my desk with no problem, thanks to LA Weight Loss. I have been going for almost three months and I’ve lost 20 pounds and seven inches. My goal is to lose 130 pounds and I’m sure I can do it. I have to be strict about exercising and not eating fatty foods. This program really is a whole lifestyle change and I’m on the right road. My goal is to weigh 150 pounds and wear cute little skirts and tank tops.

I want to be able to walk into any store and buy whatever I want. Right now the only stores I can shop in are those that carry plus sizes where it’s hard to find clothes I like, but everything looks better since I lost 20 pounds. I have even noticed that people treat me differently. I hate it that people look down on bigger people. Next time you see a plus-size person, don’t look down on them because that could be you in the future.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.






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BrittBritt95 said...
Jan. 30, 2011 at 5:10 pm
this really meant a lot that you could come out like that. im not totally overwieght but everybody at my school still looks down at me. your story is very touching to me.
 
jesusfreakgirl said...
Nov. 14, 2009 at 8:06 pm
"I saw the other girls with boyfriends and felt so left out, but then I learned you don’t need a guy to make you feel happy. That’s why you have friends. My only true friend was God"
that is incredibly encouraging! This whole story was touching. Thanks for sharing!!
 
chrissy replied...
Apr. 17, 2010 at 8:28 pm
i am glad u liked it im here for u girl
 
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