Control? This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

     My hands shake and I am losing my grip.
My jaw quivers and something or someone else
takes over my mind.
My toes twitch with anticipation to move.
Above all, my stomach is tight.
It is full.
I want it all out of me.
It makes me feel dirty, gross, self-conscious.
I do not want people to look at me.
I suck in my expanded belly to illude everyone but myself.
Please be skinny.
Please look thin.
Please get this food out of me!
I’d rather have the claws of hunger picking at my bones
than this gluttony.
My feet find the floor and I tiptoe out to kneel in front of my weakness.
I go to bed with acid in my mouth, a scratchy throat,
guilty fingers, but an empty stomach.
I am defeated.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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Lily">This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
today at 7:24 am
i love this so much!
Ame23 said...
Nov. 23, 2010 at 8:54 pm
can't people see that bulimia, anorexia, and other verions of the two are a big deal now!? can't people see that girls everywhere are suffering, throwing up everything they eat or pretending to themselves that they don't need food?! so many of us who strive to eat less than 1000 calories a day, and then try to burn off half of it, who  dread christmas and thanksgiving because we will want to eat and we know that we will hate ourselves for doing so. we who cry every time we go clothes shoppi... (more »)
SpringRayyn said...
Nov. 4, 2010 at 6:03 pm
Does anyone really see what this is about? That is so sad! Good writing though.
bjbunny said...
May 4, 2010 at 8:20 am
i understood little of this, but i could understand i thought was absolutely touching. thx;)
rawr5 said...
Nov. 24, 2009 at 1:16 pm
wow this is beutifuly written keep writing:)!!!
Ellie said...
Feb. 14, 2009 at 8:52 pm
Thats so beautiful, so well written and ecplained. i hate feeling guilty.
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