there always was a day were i wanted to feel happy in my own skin

but i didnt


i never will


everyday i look at my self look and notice all the things i dont like

mychest

mybutt

my thighs


MY EVERYTHING

i always wondered why.. why do illok like this..why ..why..mmmeee
i started telling my friends.
they said i should start taking this pill,these people can give u some if u like thats wat they told me.
so i guessed they were right. i took 1 pill a meal but i didnt each much so i took 3 pills a day.-i had taken it 3 weeks-
i started feeling weird one day. until i went to the bathroom


i fainted i was lying there thats wat they told me.-the school nurse-
she said i had been ther for about 2.5 hours.they saw my toes and fingers turning blue.
my hand was bruised from the fall. they rushed me to the hospital
they called my mom............
then the really bad news came, they told my mom i had an overdose, and
my stomach had rare cancer like symtoms. my mom came to
the room and started screaming. but them she started praying for my health.
2 weeks later,,, my doctor told my mom the symtoms had gone away and i was ok to go



from that day on iv been home schooled and very over-proteced


but yet i still look in the mirror

but i realize

all the great things i have

and that cant be replaced.....