Just under my skin lies a black sheep
But under my clothes is a girl
Under my heart is a sheet of steel
Hidden from the world
I don't want to look at you
So I stare at nothing
You'll think I've checked out again
But I'm really just trying to cope
You drop it on me like
A ton of bricks
Everything at once
Yet you don't see why
I try to fight back
Scratch my skin
Pick my nail
Anything to ground me
As you throw around me
Hard self-important words
That smack of change
And not good enough
And why even try
Each a bullet to my chest
Well aimed, well placed
Straight to the sore spots
So I give in
Hold it back 'til it hurts me
Bite my cheek 'til it bleeds
Can't wait 'til you're gone
So I can scream
And bite my pillow instead
Maybe die a little bit inside
Because all I ever wanted
Was for you to love the black sheep
I'm a little different make and model
But I'm still a person
Right?
Right?
Is this the way you show your love?
If it is then I'll take it and run
If this is what I'm given
Tarnished second place
I'll accept it bitterly
And watch the First Place girl get hers
Please just love the black sheep
Behind the whole world's glow
I might be different
But from what I've seen
I'm more like you than you know