I wasn't always like this. I wasn't always this frightened, I wasn't so shocked. A year ago my life normal. At one point I started questioning if I was still alive, was I? I always thought heaven was a peaceful place where you could not feel any pain. If I was not alive then I do know what was keeping me from heaven. I only have one thing in my mind now, you won't understand why I want what I want right now. For that you will need to know my story.