Today Is Not The Day

February 8, 2011
She looks across at me. Those eyes, I shall never forget. They were a blaze with hatred and madness. There is also something else…sadness? How could she be sad when she’s been waiting so long to kill me? To take my life? I’ve been struggling to avoid her for months, but it has gotten so hard. I see here everywhere I go, everywhere I look, she’s there. I can’t get away from the dark evil that pulsates through her veins.

I look again. Her expression has changed. Loneliness, depression, sadness and regret. Regret for what’s about to happen? Her blue eyes were once beautiful and had a happy sparkle that was once always there. Now it’s the darkest of grays. The sparkle and happiness disappeared from her life once It happened. It was an accident, but it could’ve been prevented. I didn’t mean for it to turn out the way it did…

I look at my reflection a third time. The madness has returned it, I can see it and also feel it flowing through me. I can’t stop it. I can’t ever forgive myself. It was my entire fault. The mirror shows my outside, but everything is laid out on my face anyways. Anyone could tell what I was thinking.

Looking down at my hands, I see the rope intertwined through my fingers. I walk over to my closet and start to play the game I always start at this time. If the phone rings before I put the rope over the bar, I’ll stop. I walk slowly, just like usual, but this time I pause before opening my closet.

Tears form in my eyes. I lift my arms to the top shelf to get the box. Maybe today is the day. I place the box on the floor. I continue to make a noose at one end of the rope. The tears are flowing freely once I finish. I reach my arms again towards the bar where I tie the rope.

Ring! Ring! Ring! I let go of the breath I hadn’t realized I was holding.

Today is not the day.

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leafy said...
Feb. 10, 2011 at 7:48 pm
oh wow great story! very creative and good descriptions too! its short, but sweet
youngpilot replied...
Feb. 12, 2011 at 11:38 am
because the presence of another character in the beginning, and then her absence makes the piece slight confusing, but other than that it is very well written.
skyler_anne replied...
Feb. 12, 2011 at 5:21 pm
its to show how she thinks that she's a differnet person because she has changed so much. it's still herself in the beginning.
youngpilot replied...
Feb. 12, 2011 at 7:03 pm

ok, that's what i thought, bc it was either that or a guy talking about how he cheated on a girl, which in the end didn't make any sense. got it not:)

i was wondering if you could read, rate and comment on a piece i wrote called "Passion of the Fight". it would be much appreciated:)

skyler_anne replied...
Feb. 12, 2011 at 7:12 pm
yeah sure! great to know you understand it now:)
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