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Solitude

February 6, 2010
By DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Laughter. When was the last time I heard that? Laughs and giggles and the sounds of happiness.
Happy. The word seems foreign to me. They used to say it all the time. I used to say it.
Solitude is a comforting world. A world of no hate or confusion. It's simple. But, in solitude, you forget how to be happy.
I wish I remembered how to smile. How to laugh, how to just blow things off like I used to.
Luckily, I forgot how to cry. If I had remembered, I would probably never would have been able to live as long as I have. I would have spent all of my few last days crying.
But I have to stop myself. I have to stop myself from thinking about tears. Maybe if I stoppped thinking all together I could be happy again.
They could keep their imperfect society. This room was all I needed.
I knew I was dying. I wasn't sure if it was the thirst or the hunger or the disease.
They had locked me up.
Was I crazy? I have never spoken like a madman.
The whole room dripped with silence. It oozed that strange ringing that you get when you know you are about to die.
I limped over to the dusty cracked mirror. My eyes were calm....almost dead.
Almost dead. I could feel my breath getting shallow, my heart slowing. Slowing.
It was creeping along. My own death couldn't even spare me the torture of fear. I couldn't die quickly because nothing painful in my life had ever gone quickly.
Why would my death be an exception?
"Crazy!" They had all called me. "Crazy!"
Even as they locked the door I could hear their chants.
Solitude could keep me away from people who could be contaminated by my insane ways.
I liked this solitude, I thought.
Then I sighed. Even in my dying hours I lied to myself.
My skin began to feel prickly. And just as I laid down to die in this dark black room i heard the creaking of a door opening and a light met my closing eyes.
Now they choose to save me....Just as I lay with death strangling me.
Even as I die my pain is slow....
Then I realized that now someone could hear my last words.
"I...." I whispered, "I am not crazy...."
And then I prayed that someone heard me, and I closed my eyes, and I stopped breathing.



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on Jan. 25 2011 at 4:34 pm
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Heyy thnx. That's so great of u 2 say. Hope u will check out my other stuff. I just hopped back on the site....I haven't been on the site in 4ever so srry it took so long haha.

on Jan. 25 2011 at 4:33 pm
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Sure I'll read n critique your's. heyy btw srry it took me so long 2 reply. I haven't been on the site 4 a while.

on Jan. 25 2011 at 4:32 pm
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Haha thnx. Don't worry i couldn't navigate the site 4 a while either haha. :)

chebeatus said...
on Dec. 9 2010 at 4:23 am
chebeatus, Fairbanks, Alaska
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Favorite Quote:
"Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question." - e.e. cummings.

Sorry..lol wrong author. I'm trying to understand this dang website still. Great writing DallysGrrl.

chebeatus said...
on Dec. 9 2010 at 4:19 am
chebeatus, Fairbanks, Alaska
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Favorite Quote:
"Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question." - e.e. cummings.

Diana101, this story was beautifully written. I like how the darkness, and how you paint a picture with this story. Nice job :)

Esperanza GOLD said...
on Nov. 24 2010 at 5:23 pm
Esperanza GOLD, Twinsburg, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't tell me 'sky's the limit' when there are footprints on the moon."

Diana101 i replied to ur article y won't u critique mine u promised u'd critique an article if we critiqued urs i even rated urs!

Esperanza GOLD said...
on Nov. 22 2010 at 5:47 am
Esperanza GOLD, Twinsburg, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't tell me 'sky's the limit' when there are footprints on the moon."

Wow that's rele good keep writing girl...:) Hey if u have a chance will u pleez check out my article "A Mixed up Fairytale Part I.?" It's in the forums...under fiction

on Nov. 7 2010 at 9:39 pm
StrongHeartx BRONZE, Cape Coral, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"It is better to be hated for who you are, then to be loved for someone you are not."

This was absolutely amazing.

I loved it, beyond words.

Please, keep it up. (: 


on Sep. 6 2010 at 1:54 pm
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
20 articles 0 photos 199 comments
No  problem.  And  thanks  again  for  your  comments. :)

Diana101 GOLD said...
on Sep. 3 2010 at 4:38 pm
Diana101 GOLD, Grove City, Ohio
13 articles 0 photos 107 comments

Favorite Quote:
"God's delays are not God's denials"

Thank you so much for the comment!! I am sure to work on makeing my stories longer. However, I actually wrote the story that you read for an English assignment, so it kinda had to be short. But I totally get what you're saying. And my most reacent story that is finished I think is eleven pages typed, font size 12.:)

***Thanks again for the comment:)

-Diana101:)


on Sep. 1 2010 at 10:52 am
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate the comment. and p.s., Sure I'll check out your work. Thanks again!

Diana101 GOLD said...
on Aug. 31 2010 at 6:42 pm
Diana101 GOLD, Grove City, Ohio
13 articles 0 photos 107 comments

Favorite Quote:
"God's delays are not God's denials"

P.S. I actually liked it so much that I tagged it as my favorite:)

Diana101 GOLD said...
on Aug. 31 2010 at 6:40 pm
Diana101 GOLD, Grove City, Ohio
13 articles 0 photos 107 comments

Favorite Quote:
"God's delays are not God's denials"

This was a really great story!! You had me hooked after the very first sentence!! Awsome!!!

***Could you check out my story and comment?

-Diana101

 


on Apr. 2 2010 at 11:35 am
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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Thank you I really wanted it 2 be creepy!

on Apr. 2 2010 at 11:35 am
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
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WOW thanx so much!! So glad u like it.

on Mar. 30 2010 at 10:46 pm
whateverjuliet BRONZE, Miami, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
true love never dies,it only gets stronger with time.

creepy too!

on Mar. 30 2010 at 10:41 pm
whateverjuliet BRONZE, Miami, Florida
3 articles 3 photos 89 comments

Favorite Quote:
true love never dies,it only gets stronger with time.

wow, that is good! keep writing!!

on Mar. 3 2010 at 11:06 am
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
20 articles 0 photos 199 comments
Thanks so much!! Glad u liked It!!

on Mar. 2 2010 at 5:40 pm
Silverae BRONZE, Hermosillo, Other
2 articles 0 photos 12 comments
btw, this is a really sad story! :( but it's very well written :)

on Mar. 2 2010 at 4:54 pm
DallysGrrl PLATINUM, Middlesex, New Jersey
20 articles 0 photos 199 comments
Haha thnx...i think. haha jk. thnx 4 the comment.


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