I really don`t know what I can do without you, but I’m eager to find out. I want to know if I can stand on my own and what I’m best at. Leaving you behind is hurtful, even to me but I have to find who I am and who I want to be. I always want to keep my options open and I want explore what`s out there. Make new friends and find new interests. Love new people, and find a new family of friends. We can always hang out and be friends, but we will never be how we used to be. I will always love you and you will always have a special place in my heart that you will always hold the key too. You can use it whenever, but right now, I want to be alone and I really need to figure myself out. What will I do without you, who I will be without you? That is all up to me and the choices I make in the future.
May 12, 2012