You told me you love me, but I know now that you were lying. I feel stuck with you- your presence- it had me blinded. Everything I can see is now covered in black and white. There are no gray areas. I’ve tried looking for them with all of my might! Every lie you tell gets added to my collection. Every good memory- sorry I have no recollection. You have taken my soul, changed it, and disgraced it in every way. Then you left me to deal with this every day? Everything you do is raw, and I just can’t take it! You have been the downfall to my life, but there is no way to escape it. And your presence keeps me blinded with every glance I take your way. It’s like a time bomb in my mind-which my brain can no longer take. Take this pain from my body- just blow me away! I’m tired of your selfishness, your hatred, and your guidance. They all remind me of how I ended up so misguided.
February 21, 2012