I'm laying here on the roof, starring up at the stars. Their beautiful, twinkling lights thrown against an ebony sky. I wish I could truly appreciate the sight, but thoughts of you fill my mind. I don't understand why you treat me this way. I thought we were forever. Tears fill my eyes as I remember the things you promised me, the way you said you felt. Why did you lie? What did pretending even do for you? Why was it the better option? I don't understand. I thought..... I thought you loved me. I can't see through the tears, can't breathe through the tightness in my chest, and can't think straight because of the devastation in my heart. Maybe that's why I find myself standing up, walking to the edge. You, you did this to me, destroyed me, tore me apart. I can't handle the pain anymore. I love you so much, it hurts too much. So I jump.
December 3, 2011