In My Life

March 17, 2011
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When people ask me what I like to write about, I simply say, “my life.” There is nothing like it. It is always changing, going in a million difference directions. And when I’m lost, well that’s when I turn to him. You can’t help who you fall in love with. It just happens. I mean, it just happened. Andrew is the greatest boyfriend anyone could ever ask for. He respects my boundaries, he knows my past. He knows me. I should be completely head over heels in love with him, because he deserves it. But I’m not. I guess I’m just hoping if I stay with him long enough, eventually all the memories will fade. I am in love with a boy named Alex. He lives half-way around the world and I only get to see him once a year. Every summer, I go to the amazing city of Auckland, New Zealand, and stay with my cousin for about two weeks. I spend as much time with Alex as possible. We still talk once in a while through e-mail, but it gets more and more painful every day. That’s why I have to stop. Alex used to say he loved me every time we talked. But now he never says it anymore. Of course I can’t help it. He knows I love him and all he can say is “I know.” Something has changed in his heart and I have no idea what it is. And so, this is why I have to let him go. Three years I’ve been holding on, and I don’t really feel that it’s worth it anymore. Andrew is more of my type anyways. You know what they say, the course of true love never did run smooth.

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msoccerm345 said...
Mar. 26, 2011 at 12:55 pm
okay this is super super creepy. i mean not your writing cuz it is amazing but im kinda going through the same thing. My boyfriend (whos name is Andrew, weird right??) knows everything about me and i know he would do anything for me. he even talks about getting  married. i know i should be head over heals in love with him but im really not. i am in love with this guy named Zach that i dated last year for 9 months. he is like my other half but we broke up because i thought he would be happie... (more »)
a7xangel replied...
Mar. 29, 2011 at 12:25 pm
Thanks for the feedback. I hope everything works out the way you want it to.
LoveeHurtss said...
Mar. 23, 2011 at 7:07 am
If you feel so bad on your boyfriend and he's more of your type then why is he coming second best? I was witha boy and everytime the boy i really loved text,mail or saw me i remember my actual boyfriend didnt know a thing so i ended it and although now i miss him Im glad i did it. But i lost the lad i trully loved by doing this. It is time to let go adn stop holding on to something that will probably never happenn. Good writting thou. i really feel wher eyour coming from. I'll look out for more... (more »)
a7xangel replied...
Mar. 29, 2011 at 12:25 pm
He isn't coming in second best anymore.
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