I fell hard, fast and unconditionally for this girl. the only problem? i can't tell anyone that matters. my parents can't know. my friends, the ones that judge me daily- yeah they can;t know either. Even my oldest brother wouldn't understand. i want to marry this girl. she's my soul mate, but it hurts so badly because i can't share this with anyone. i want to explain that i would do anything for this girl. i would give up everything i had to move with her. she lives far away, i'll be with her someday. we both want the same things and we want to spend our eternity together. it sounds stupid, i'm sure. but i know we'll be together one day. this isn't just another long distance crush. well, at first it was. but it's different now. i feel like i've known this girl forever. i want to be with her forever. too bad i can't tell my parents. oh, God, they would kick me out so fast. i hate this world we live in, it sucks when you have to lie to your own parents. they think i'm dating 'steve'.
January 6, 2011