Unexpected MAG

June 26, 2010
By ssophiaa GOLD, Falls Church, Virginia
ssophiaa GOLD, Falls Church, Virginia
17 articles 0 photos 52 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You cannot operate from a concern of how you're perceived."
--Kevin Kittle


First kisses are supposed to be perfect. They're supposed to be romantic and sweet. You're supposed to fall in love just after you kiss and feel fireworks all over your body. You're supposed to be under the stars at your front door after the perfect date. A shooting star flies by, and he says, “I just wished that you would kiss me,” and you – feeling unusually flirty and confident, because you're in a perfect moment – kiss him and it lasts for the perfect amount of time and doesn't get gross or walked in on by your parents. And then he says he loves you and you say you love him too and give him another sweet kiss before walking in your door and not telling anyone about it because it was too wonderful.

That's how first kisses are supposed to be, but not always how they are.

Larkin was in the girls' bathroom after school, crying. She tried wiping at her eyeliner, but it streaked even more. Her eyelashes felt heavy and clumped, and she cursed herself for wearing waterproof mascara but regular eyeliner. Then she began to cry again and retreated back into a stall.

Her eyes were red and her lips were puffy. Her nose was stuffed up and she tried to smile, hoping no one would notice. But when she smiled into the mirror to see if it looked like tears, it was unmistakable. So she began to cry.

Again.

She finally emerged from the bathroom 20 minutes after the buses had left. There was no late bus, so she had to walk home, a mile away. And she had a huge load of homework. So she walked, sniffling as she went.

I hope I don't see anyone I know, she thought, but knowing me, I will.

And how well she knew herself, because walking right in front of her was Jackson Davies, a boy she had known since first grade but never really talked to. He was nerdy, tall and lanky, and super pale, unlike the guys she liked who were tan and buff and … well, still tall, but they were into football, not computers. Or whatever Jackson and his friends were into.

“Please don't turn around,” Larkin whispered, willing him to keep going. She made as little noise as possible with her flip-flops, but it was a challenge. However, it was also slow, so it put her even farther behind him, which was good.

A stoplight was ahead. It was a long wait, and if it was still red when she got there, she'd be forced to talk to him.

Please say walk, she willed again. But she knew luck was not on her side that day, and how right she was. She took a deep breath as Jackson turned around.

Look upset and maybe he won't talk to you, she said to herself, trying to force tears.

“Hi, Larkin.” Jackson waved.

No tears came when she needed them. She sighed and rolled her eyes. “Hey,” she said softly.

He looked closer. “Are you crying?”

“I was,” she answered truthfully.

“You wanna talk about it?”

Larkin considered this. She wanted nothing more than to pour her heart out to someone who wouldn't judge her. She looked at Jackson in his white socks, pulled up to the calf, and his bright orange basketball shorts and running shoes. She figured he wouldn't be one to judge.

Five minutes later, they were sitting on a bench outside Taco Bell, talking.

“It's just that I wanted him to stay with me into high school,” she admitted, forgetting who she was talking to. “I sort of envisioned us going to homecoming and spending the summer together … I just never thought he would be the one to end it. I mean, I thought of ending it a million times, but I never did. I wanted him to be my first kiss. I wanted him to fall in love with me.”

Jackson sighed and touched her shoulder. She jumped a little at his touch, but then relaxed. He wasn't making a move; he was Jackson Davies, for crying out loud.

“You can't wish for someone to be in love with you. You just have to enjoy them so that first ‘I love you' and that first kiss are unexpected. You can't plan love,” he advised.

Larkin looked up at him, confused. Jackson's face was inches from hers, and suddenly, he wasn't so bad. His breath smelled like 5 Gum and he had freckles that were kind of … cute. His teeth were white and straight because of braces in sixth grade. And his lips were the perfect pink a guy's lips should be: not girly pink, but natural.

And now, Larkin didn't care that things weren't perfect. She didn't care that this wasn't homecoming and she wasn't in a beautiful dress with her hair done. She didn't care that Jackson wasn't asking her to dance under the stars. She didn't care that she was in a smelly Taco Bell parking lot in ripped jeans and worn flip-flops. She didn't even care that Jackson had a pizza stain on his shirt. And mostly, she didn't care that Jackson was, well, Jackson. It just felt right.

She scooted closer and leaned in. Then he leaned in and … then he stood up.

“I should get going,” he said. “Nice talking to you.”

Larkin didn't even wave. She just watched Jackson Davies, the boy she had never paid any attention to and suddenly wanted to be her first kiss, walk away from her.

She ran into the Taco Bell sniffling, clenching her teeth to fight tears. She ran straight up to the counter.

“You got a bathroom?” she asked frantically.

“For customers only,” the greasy guy at the counter replied.

“Crap!” she squeaked, running out and down the street.

Her eyelashes felt heavy as she ran and tears moved toward her ears and her flip-flops broke.


The author's comments:
There are so many articles about perfect first kisses, I wanted to write something real.

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on Oct. 31 2011 at 6:38 pm
sarah4president SILVER, Santa Clara, California
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Favorite Quote:
répondez s'il vous plaît

the ending was so unexpected... i love it!

on Oct. 31 2011 at 5:46 pm
Dreamgirl95 BRONZE, Sugarland, Texas
4 articles 0 photos 63 comments

Favorite Quote:
Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you.

Awww... this was so sad. The writing was good though. I loved it.

on Oct. 30 2011 at 3:52 pm
WritingJulia SILVER, Binghamton, New York
6 articles 0 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Kind words can be short and easy to say, but their echoes are truly endless." -Mother Theresa

I can completely relate to this story cuz I built huge expectations 4 my first kiss, but it was very different than what I'd imagined. 

on Oct. 19 2011 at 9:10 pm
doldrums SILVER, Sanford, North Carolina
6 articles 0 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
"If you can't accept people for their faults, you will never like anyone."

I"m not usually one to comment on these stories, but I enjoyed this one. I was almost afraid the ending would be typical, but you made it perfect.

Illiterate said...
on Oct. 19 2011 at 8:19 pm
Illiterate, Reno, Nevada
0 articles 0 photos 13 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The eye is the first circle; the horizon which it forms is the second; and throughout nature this primary figure is repeated without end. It is the highest emblem in the cipher of the world." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Awkward moments make for great first impression stories.

Kayte BRONZE said...
on Oct. 15 2011 at 3:24 pm
Kayte BRONZE, Sandy, Utah
3 articles 0 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
-Mother Teresa

"You can't plan love". Wish I could have had a Jackson to give me that advise. This is beautiful(:

ssophiaa GOLD said...
on Sep. 27 2011 at 9:22 pm
ssophiaa GOLD, Falls Church, Virginia
17 articles 0 photos 52 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You cannot operate from a concern of how you're perceived."
--Kevin Kittle

Well, this isn't a true story, but if it were, do you really think they would after an awkward moment like that? I don't!

on Sep. 27 2011 at 9:27 am
singingdetective SILVER, Sugar Land, Texas
9 articles 0 photos 53 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Out of a world of laughter,
suddenly I am sad.
Day and night, it haunts me,
the kiss I never had"
--Midsummer by Syndey King Russell

"Chances lost are hope's torn up pages"-- "Chances" by Five for Fighting

this made me cry!!!! i think almost everyone can relate to this story :)

i want to hear what happened though! Did she and Jackson hook up? I hope they did! It wouldn't be right if they didn't (but, yet, it might also be realistic) :((((


on Sep. 14 2011 at 7:11 pm
Kat4ever333 GOLD, Orange, California
14 articles 35 photos 104 comments

Favorite Quote:
I make dark things beautiful and beautiful things dark!
-Kerli I.L.U

OMG i second that totally tried that! ended up getting my heart mashed into itty bitty baby peices........trust me not easy to clean up

askingfish said...
on Sep. 14 2011 at 1:11 pm
askingfish, Spotsylvania, Virginia
0 articles 0 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Dance like there's no one watching, Love like you'll never get hurt, Sing like there's no one listening, Live like there's heaven on earth."

Oh my gosh!!! I feel so bad for her!! It was really good though!

on Sep. 6 2011 at 6:20 pm
singinginthegardn GOLD, Cowell, Massachusetts
16 articles 2 photos 158 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." ~Anaïs Nin

LOVE YOU TOO HAHAHA

. said...
on Sep. 6 2011 at 2:42 pm
hahahahahahaha whoever you are i love you lol

on Sep. 5 2011 at 5:09 pm
singinginthegardn GOLD, Cowell, Massachusetts
16 articles 2 photos 158 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." ~Anaïs Nin

.....yes..YES!!..oh..oh..wait..dang. 

ssophiaa GOLD said...
on Sep. 2 2011 at 12:59 am
ssophiaa GOLD, Falls Church, Virginia
17 articles 0 photos 52 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You cannot operate from a concern of how you're perceived."
--Kevin Kittle

I'm 15 too guys, but I'm telling you right now do not overanalyze your first kiss. It will never be perfect. It will actually probably be one of the most awkward moments of your life, but as you share more kisses with that person, each one gets better and the best ones are the ones that you don't expect and happen under the most un-special circumstances. :)

D. said...
on Aug. 28 2011 at 11:56 pm
That's exactly why I wrote it. I've always been the girl who overanalyzes her every move and i realized while writing this that with love, you just have to let everything play out and let it be. I'm glad people can relate to this story so well!

-Duckie- GOLD said...
on Aug. 27 2011 at 3:39 pm
-Duckie- GOLD, West Fargo, North Dakota
18 articles 0 photos 127 comments

Favorite Quote:
Your heart is a weapon the size of your fist. Keep fighting. Keep loving.
-Anonymous

Dude that is exactly how I feel. planning love didn't work well for me either....

on Aug. 14 2011 at 4:06 pm
Iggy_Fang112 BRONZE, Daytona Beach, Florida
2 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
Right now I'm having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I've forgotten this before.

And

Pain is inevitable; Suffering is optional

Very good. You can plan love, but the love you plan will NEVER go exactly as planned. Been there done that lol xD.

on Jul. 27 2011 at 10:05 pm
singingwriter14 BRONZE, Chester, New York
2 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Some days you're the statue. Some days you're the pigeon."

You're right. Real life certainly isn't a fairy tale and you depicted this quite beautifully. Truthfully, it sounds like the story of my life. Hahaha. Good job.

alexandra158 said...
on Jul. 22 2011 at 2:42 pm
alexandra158, Houston, Texas
0 articles 0 photos 3 comments
Same here!

on Jul. 22 2011 at 2:34 pm
youaretheinkandlifeisthepaper BRONZE, Houston, Texas
3 articles 0 photos 26 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I want to unfold. I do not want to be folded anywhere, because there, where I am folded, I am a lie." Maggie Stiefvater

I'm fifteen and I agree with you both :)


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