Take Me Back to That Night

June 15, 2010
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As I sit here tonight, thinking about how this could have possibly happened and where things went wrong, my mind wanders back to that one night. That night you promised me forever. That night you told me you’d always be here. That night you held me tight and told me that you loved me. What happened? Was there something I didn’t see? Was it all a lie? Did I ever really mean something to you?

Alex and I were taking a walk by the lake on a warm, August night. August 4th 2008 to be exact; I remember it perfectly. Things between Alex and I had been a little shaky lately. We were both working through our trust issues. I was willing to work through anything for him, though. I cared about him deeply. I wanted us to work.

We walked along the pathway surrounding the lake, hand in hand. We strolled in silence, but not an uncomfortable silence. We were just content to be together. I was gazing at the moonlight against the lake when Alex broke the silence. “Do you want to go sit down? We could go on the swings if you’d like,” he said. I answered, “Sure. Let’s go on the swings.” We walked over to the little playground next to the lake.

I propped myself up on one of the swings and Alex did the same. I was still staring at the lake, when I sensed Alex staring at me. I glanced at him and saw him smile. Not his usual giant grin, but his innocent half-smile. The way he smiles when he gazes at me intently. I blushed and cracked a slight smile.
“What are you thinking about?” I asked Alex
“I’m trying to figure out how to tell you the things I want to tell you.”
“You’re good with words. Just say it.”

Alex hopped of his swing and stood in front of me. He grabbed a hold of my hands and I looked up at him. My heart was racing and I had loads of butterflies in my stomach. I didn’t know what to expect. But then he cracked his special smile and I took a deep breath and listened. Alex began, “Megan, I know things between us haven’t been going so smooth lately, but I want to change that. You are the most important person in my life and I don’t. When I tell you I love you, I mean it with all of my heart. Megan, I promise you that this is forever, you and me. I’m never going to hurt you or break your heart. I’ll always be here, no matter what.” He held me tight and promised he would never let go.

I believed you. I put my trust in you.

Now, it is one year and eleven months later. You’re gone. You walked out of my life. You shattered my heart into a countless amount of pieces. I honestly loved you with all of my heart, but that doesn’t matter anymore. You’re not coming back. You’ve moved forward and left me behind. You told me you would never leave. You promised forever, remember?

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ForeverknownasCheyenne said...
Jun. 21, 2010 at 6:24 pm
That was an absolute mind blowing piece! I did see that mistake, but everyone makes them, dont worry. Great Job, keep writing.
gymbabe This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 18, 2010 at 11:06 am

That was amazing!  Very sad and wistful, and great job with the past and present.  I loved it!

Btw, will you check out and comment on my work?

megjackson said...
Jun. 17, 2010 at 6:29 pm
I made a mistake in the line, "You are the most important person in my life and I don't" I forgot to finish the sentence, but it should say, "... and I don't want to lose you.
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