When you touched my hand for the last time, I felt the first tear roll down my cheek. Then you told me I would never be forgotten. That’s when the second tear fell. But when you said goodbye, I knew it would be the last goodbye, I watched you turn around, and walk out of my life forever. And that’s when I lost it. I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I was tired of always being strong. I was strong for you, that I could do. Bu since you left me behind to do something bigger, I had no one to be strong for anymore. So I just let it all go. I felt like with every tear that fell, I was being cut in two. Everything I had pushed down for the past year and a half, had all of a sudden come up and came out in the form of tears. I just wanted to yell out, and tell you everything. But most importantly, tell you that I loved you, that I was IN love with you. But then I thought, maybe I should just leave it as a goodbye. Simple partings are always the easiest, at least that’s what I heard. I’m watching you stand in line, as the tears are slowing their journey down my face. My mind says you still have time, you know you want to. My heart is just erratically beating and I’m finding it hard to breathe. I find myself saying to hell with it your worth the risk. Finding my voice, I called out to you. You look over, with a slight blush from some unwanted stares. I can see your eyes, even from here, and they’re filled with confusion. That’s when I find the courage, I don’t know where, to tell you I’m in love with you, and have been for the past 3 years. I’m still across the room from you, but you always had this thing for reading lips. But after I tell you this,, your blue eyes felt like they were drilling a hole through my head. I return the powerful stare, and I don’t think that I’ve ever had a more intense staring contest before in my entire life. My eyes see movement, and I see that your mouth is moving, asking me if I meant that. I mouth back, yes. Then before I know it, I’m being wrapped up in the most strongest hug, and I could of swore that I lost my breath but only for a second. That’s when I notice that I’m shaking, and so are you, or maybe that’s just me shaking both of us. I’m proven wrong, because when you pull back, your face has become a road map of black tear lines. I know I look the same, but without the running mascara. Then you put your head back on my shoulder and continue to cry and hug me. But then I hear the slightest sound that sounds like my name, so I just hum, to let you know I heard you. You say these four words that I never thought you would tell me: I love you too. I just lose it all over again, but not because you said goodbye, but just because. I don’t have a reason, I just cry, I cry for you, for me, for the feelings that have been hiding for the past 3 years, for everything. I just cry.
Cry For You
May 30, 2010