EC+AM=4ever Chapter 42

March 9, 2010
July 22, 2009
3:30 p.m.
Evalynne’s House

Ash left at four, it was currently three-thirty. So I only had half an hour left with him. Then he would be gone. No, not forever. But for a long time.

I sat with him at my dining room table, as we silently, desolately waited for the bus to come and pick him up. To take him to Iraq. Away from his home. Away from me.

“Evalynne,” he spoke, breaking the silence.

I looked up at him in response. “Yes?”

“I need you to know that even though I’m leaving soon, I will always be with you in your heart. Yeah, that sound totally sappy and cheesy, but it’s true. I’ll be thinking of you every minute, every second that we’re apart. And when I return, when I get to see you again, that’s when I’ll be happy again.”

I couldn’t hold my tears back any longer, so I just let them roll down my cheeks freely. “You know,” I said, once I’d composed myself, “if I hadn’t met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I hadn’t liked you, I wouldn’t love you. And if I hadn’t loved you, I wouldn’t miss you.”

For a moment, he looked upset. He probably had himself convinced that I was angry about him leaving, but he was so very wrong.

“But I did, I do, and I will.” I added. “Besides, absence makes the heart grow fonder.”

Then a sad smile spread across his face and silence took over once again. And then, after what felt like hours, the military bus pulled up. I heard the low grown of the engine outside of my house, heard it come to a stop. Ash and I both stood up and he picked up his suitcases, rolling them out the doorway. But he dropped them in my driveway, turning to me and kissing me.

“I love you.” he whispered in my ear.

“I love you too.” I whispered back. Then I let him go. He turned, grabbing his two suitcases and walked over to the bus. A man who must have been the driver, helped him load them into the back of the large vehicle. Then Ash walked around to the front, and climbed inside.

And I stood on my driveway, crying, hurting, yet feeling proud of him at the same time. I knew how lucky I was to even know a person like Ash…someone so hard to say goodbye to.

The driver got back into the bus and I knew this was it. He was really leaving. But as I stared at the bus through my tears, I made out Ash’s face, peering at me through one of the windows. He was trying not to cry, but I could tell that this was hard for him.

After all, this was his first time going to fight in the war. Plus, he was leaving me. And if he loved me as much as I loved him, then that must have been pretty difficult too. I knew I was having a hard time with it.

As the pulled away, he waved at me through the glass. And I waved back. I stood at my driveway until all of my tears had been shed. Then I turned and walked back into my house, knowing what I had done. Knowing it was the right thing. Yet also the hardest thing for me. But I’d been strong and I’d done it.

I’d let him go.

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Catiestar said...
Jun. 30, 2011 at 1:21 am

So, so sad. Terrible for them both.


MythicWeaver said...
Aug. 26, 2010 at 8:20 am
Why do I think Ash is going to die? IT would be horrible, but just this feeling...
Saturday said...
Jul. 10, 2010 at 3:47 pm
And besides Cole really was just desperate not creepy
happy said...
Mar. 23, 2010 at 7:50 pm
Truth be told I don't think either of them deserved her
madmadie22 replied...
Jul. 6, 2010 at 4:26 pm
I absolutely agree! :D
Saturday said...
Mar. 20, 2010 at 2:50 am
OMG!!! No offense but I hate you so much right now teamjacobarchuleta, because not only have I been here for the last 4 hours reading, (I'm not getting any sleep tonight) but also how could you let Evalynne marry Ash. He was such a jerk!! not to meniont he shows qualities of an abusive husband!
TeamJacobArchuleta replied...
Mar. 20, 2010 at 8:35 pm
lol i kinda hate me too....honestly, i'm totally team cole! but in the end, i think everyone will see why i had her pick after i'm completely done with this story, i'm thinking about writing a sequel to it... :)
esmeralda replied...
Mar. 22, 2010 at 10:11 am
i think she should have married ash
cole has the background of a future rapist
i mean at least ash didnt try to shove his hands up her shirt!
TeamJacobArchuleta replied...
Mar. 22, 2010 at 1:01 pm
lol thats true too :)
Saturday replied...
Mar. 23, 2010 at 7:46 pm
true but Cole didn't hurt her as much as Ash did!!
Rawrzchan replied...
Apr. 4, 2010 at 6:18 am
I agree with Saturday. Ash broke her heart like 3 times. And cole was always there for her. He was really kind and sweet and loving. All hope is lost for Cole.:(
Katherine1 replied...
Aug. 20, 2010 at 10:13 am
guys, i think everyone is overreacting about Cole trying to touch her. HES A GUY. thats what guys do. he didnt force her, and stopped when she asked. that does not spell future rapist.
Saturday replied...
Aug. 22, 2010 at 11:12 pm
I agree Katherine1. And it's not like Cole was really upset with her when she pushed him away. Ash would have been.
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