I try to be nice, but it's usually a mistake. I fall hard into their trap, and they flip it onto me. I'm certainly learning the hard way. They were so nice to me from the start; I felt bad for not being nice in return, I didn't want to be hurt again! Every time Im nice, it's a mistake. I hardened my heart, and turn away. They call me things because I do that; I don't really care! I would rather be alone for the rest of my life then be around them. I try to avoid them, when I do they through things at me. I try to hold all my emotions in; I feel like a lifeless, disrespected zombie when I do. But life's a tragedy!