Moms dead, moms dead, moms dead. The words were continuously ringing through my mind. I couldn’t quite process the thought. My mother was dead for god’s sake. I couldn’t understand how was it possible she had just taken a ten minute drive to the grocery story but now she was gone, forever. I couldn’t believe I had been so stupid. I had been yelling at her, about why she wouldn’t let me go and hang out with my friends for the night. My very last words to my mom had been I hate you. How could I have been so selfish and conceited? That was all she had of me, that may have been her last memory was me shouting I hate you to her. Let’s face I could die inside. That’s exactly why at 12 pm today I’m doing it. I have prepared the pills. Let’s face it my mom is dead I have nothing to live for. Today I take all 300 aspirins, I will end my life.
November 19, 2011