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I'm Perfect MAG

September 13, 2010
By SavvyPants SILVER, Roy, Utah
SavvyPants SILVER, Roy, Utah
5 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Basically, I'm for whatever gets you through the night..." Frank Sinatra


I’m perfect.

Do you see, do you see how perfect I am?
Do you see how perfectly I fix my face to look lovely?
Do you see how perfectly I do my hair to look so soft and beautiful?
Do you see how perfectly I act?

Everything about me is perfect, I know you think it.
It’s in your eyes when you look at me while I walk down the halls.

You stare at the people who are vying for my attention, and you think I’m just perfect as you mouth the words;
“God, I hate her.”

And so I tell myself, every day, just how perfect I am.
When I wake up in the morning, I think of how perfectly I must have looked while I slept.
When I shower I look down and admire just how perfectly I’m shaped.
When I fix my perfect hair and do my perfect make-up, I tell myself just how perfect I truly I am.

And when I walk into the kitchen and see him leaning against the counter,
When I smile and choke down the newest ­flavor of bile that rises in my throat, I still know I’m perfect.
When I don’t bother to ask his name because I know he’ll be gone before I get home, I know I’m perfect.
When he leers at me and agrees with how perfect I am, I know how perfect I am.

And when I walk out the door.
And when I reach the bus stop.
And when I greet everyone with a hug.
And every time I breathe.
Every time I know just how f---ing perfect I am.

So perfect I could scream.
So perfect …
I feel full of perfection, full and round like a balloon,
Stretched so tight with perfection I just might pop and all my perfection wouldn’t make any difference.
That’s how f----ing perfect I feel!

Ah, but it’s okay. Because no matter how tight it stretches me, no matter how painful it is, I’m still perfect.
I still look perfect.
I still act perfect.
And I still feel perfectly vile residing within this skin.
But that’s not at all how I should feel.

No, no, no.
Perfect. I should feel … perfect.
And so I’ll tell myself; smile perfectly, dress perfectly.
Because I’m supposed to be f---ing perfect.

Because when I curl up at night and laugh and laugh just to hold back my tears, I’m still perfect.
Even when my face crumples and turns red and ugly, I know I’m perfect.
Because when you add the right details, when you fake the right things, add just enough empty space,
It makes you perfect.

All it takes is the right punctuation.
All it takes is the right spaces and spelling.
A little capitalization and it’s perfect.
I’m perfect.

I’m perfect.
I’mperfect.
Imperfect.

… I guess I lied.



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on Nov. 5 2010 at 6:55 pm
YogaGirl SILVER, Williamstown, New York
9 articles 5 photos 59 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I can clearly see you're the daughter of a mother's aunt's grand-mother's uncle's father's grandaughter's daughter."~~~ "Wouldn't that make me a poptart?!"

This is so astonishingly written that I honestly have no complete review for this. Just an amazing job, I cut it out of teenink's magazine and put it in my locker for inspiration :D Keep it up!

on Nov. 1 2010 at 7:09 pm
Believe_me BRONZE, Hickory, Mississippi
1 article 2 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Everything the government touches turns to crap." Ringo Starr

Wow :) That's amazing! Great job!

on Oct. 24 2010 at 11:15 pm
SpringRayyn PLATINUM, Lakeville, Minnesota
34 articles 2 photos 658 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't punish yourself," she heard her say again, but there would be punishment and pain, and there would be happiness too. That was writing."
--Markus Zusak, "The Book Thief"

I like how you added more feeling as you went along into the story. I really think it would have been better if you left out the "I guess I lied" part. I like the ending better as if you just had "imperfect" at the end. I will never forget how to spell imperfect ever again now that I read this. I never really noticed how the word does that before, turns I'm perfect into imperfect. Awesome.

on Oct. 3 2010 at 3:52 pm
Lynda.lou BRONZE, Clearfield, Utah
1 article 1 photo 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
\"Before I do anything, I think, well what hasn\'t been seen. Sometimes, that turns out to be something ghastly and not fit for society. And sometimes that inspiration becomes something that\'s really worthwhile.\" -Jim Carrey

i am in awe. This is perfect

mmfdg623 GOLD said...
on Sep. 26 2010 at 3:57 pm
mmfdg623 GOLD, Lyndhurst, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 39 comments

Favorite Quote:
Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.
Louisa May Alcott

I loved this.  It was amazing.  I love how you added more and more depth to the character; at first she seems very shallow and like she cares about nothing, but as the story continues, you show that there's more than she's showing.  Great job!

on Sep. 19 2010 at 3:33 pm
Annieboo SILVER, Salt Lake City, Utah
7 articles 5 photos 55 comments

Favorite Quote:
Some one who gets tricked is a fool. Some one who trusts is an even bigger fool. But if you get tricked and tricked again...and still trust...that's makes you the best person to know.

I like how you started out then went more and more into feeling. Great job!

Bex24 BRONZE said...
on Sep. 18 2010 at 5:38 pm
Bex24 BRONZE, Toronto, Other
3 articles 21 photos 79 comments
Love the last four lines. Great job :)

Kenz said...
on Sep. 16 2010 at 9:00 pm
I thought this was just beautiful. My English teacher showed it to us today, and I almost cried. It's just so---amazing. Good work.

AnonyMiss GOLD said...
on Sep. 13 2010 at 10:33 pm
AnonyMiss GOLD, Houston, Texas
16 articles 1 photo 30 comments
I love how real this is. It flows so well too, your tone has such a nice pattern.

on Sep. 13 2010 at 3:17 pm
pinkypromise23 PLATINUM, Cranston, Rhode Island
30 articles 0 photos 414 comments

Favorite Quote:
i know that you believe you understand what you think i said, but im not sure you realize that what you heard is not what i meant.

tagged*   

on Sep. 13 2010 at 3:16 pm
pinkypromise23 PLATINUM, Cranston, Rhode Island
30 articles 0 photos 414 comments

Favorite Quote:
i know that you believe you understand what you think i said, but im not sure you realize that what you heard is not what i meant.

oh my god this is soo good! five stars and tegged as a favorite. the ending espically gave me goosebumps(:

on Sep. 13 2010 at 12:12 pm
KiKi_2011 BRONZE, Lynn, Indiana
1 article 0 photos 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You gotta dance like no one's watching, dream like you'll live forever, live like you're going to die tomorrow, and love like it's never going to hurt."

Oh. My. God....This is so amazing! i love the entire thing!


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