Introduction: Something was wrong and I could feel it deep down inside of me tearing at every inch of my heart as I walked slowly to the terminal gate, I wanted to turn around over and over again but I know I couldn’t go back now, all of the feelings that I’ve been keeping bottled up inside for this past couple months was screaming to be let out but I kept my cool and continued to walk. He had left me feeling complete, a feeling I haven’t felt since I’ve been “home”. As I boarded the plane a wave of pain washed over but finally I sat down in the soft seat, relaxed and closed my eyes. My life as of the last past three months kept playing in my head like a DVD that needed to be fixed. I was on a plane similar to this one only I was a lot different three months ago; my auburn beach wavy hair glowed as I landed in Madrid and my life was changed forever.