The Binger

November 19, 2009
By Dazed PLATINUM, Teaneck, New Jersey
Dazed PLATINUM, Teaneck, New Jersey
20 articles 7 photos 109 comments

She watched the car back out of the drive way and turn onto the street. As soon as it was out of sight she nearly sprang out of her chair and locked herself in the back room. She was breathing heavily but she didn’t stop; something fiery and nauseating swelled in her belly – pushing her forward. The shelves were full – they always were, and she reached for the first bag she saw. Pretzels. Into her mouth she shoved a handful, two handfuls, three. Swallowed. The fire still burned in her abdomen and she put the bag back on the shelf. Doughnuts. With shaking hands she ripped open the box and grabbed one covered in frosting. One bite, two bite, three. It tasted like regret and depression and anger and hate. Hate, so much hate, staining her shirt and her pants and her heart. She thrust more doughnuts into her bursting cheeks, forcing them down with Cheesecurls and chocolate. Her eyes were squeezed shut but she knew she was crying, sobs of forbidden sugar and calories. The box was suddenly empty but her stomach was full and she placed it down silently on the shelf. Breathe. She felt unclean, so dirty and disgusting, but she let out a sigh of relief anyway. The fire was gone, at least for now. She wiped the crumbs and the tears from her face, ignoring the will to vomit. A car horn sounded from a far away driveway and she floated sadly back to reality. From the pockets of her jeans she pulled out a smile and opened the door, her mouth and soul swollen with invisible cavities.



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Dazed PLATINUM said...
on Feb. 14 2010 at 4:58 pm
Dazed PLATINUM, Teaneck, New Jersey
20 articles 7 photos 109 comments
wow thank you. yes it is from personal experience.. a tad exaggerated but still

893201501 said...
on Feb. 14 2010 at 4:48 pm
893201501, Calgary, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr. Seuss

Just curious - is this from personal experience at all? I really enjoyed reading this, not only was it amazing writing, but it's something I experience all the time.

Dazed PLATINUM said...
on Feb. 9 2010 at 4:57 pm
Dazed PLATINUM, Teaneck, New Jersey
20 articles 7 photos 109 comments
thank you *blushes*

billydee22ny said...
on Feb. 9 2010 at 2:56 pm
billydee22ny, Middletown, Maryland
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you are an incredible writer. i'm jealous.

Dazed PLATINUM said...
on Dec. 16 2009 at 7:21 pm
Dazed PLATINUM, Teaneck, New Jersey
20 articles 7 photos 109 comments
thank you :)

aangelaa said...
on Dec. 16 2009 at 5:50 pm
aangelaa, Atlanta, Georgia
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wow. this is so powerful. really well written.


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