Would You Rather...

September 29, 2009
By yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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Would you rather have pink or blue nail polish? Would you rather be deaf or blind? Would you rather live as a vegetable or die as a hemophiliac? Would you rather wake up not knowing who you are or not wake up at all?
They, the doctors, want me to write. Anything, they said, even a scribble. I don’t remember how to write or to even hold a pencil. My fist clenches around it like a baby, like I had been reborn. These people, probably watching me from the video camera. Laughing. Like I was some sick joke. My face flushes, my eyes water stinging my cheeks, slipping down to drip on the paper. Leaving dark, shriveled, circles, in place of my words.
I cannot begin to describe how it feels when you don’t know yourself anymore. Waking up and recognizing nothing, from the colour of your hair or the dryness of you hands. Falling asleep one night after giving your mother a kiss not knowing the next time you see her you will scream in panic. As if it was all a recorded film that had been rewound, and the play button was stuck. Except for me, the play button wasn’t just stuck. It wasn’t there period.
This woman, my mother so I am told, places a photo next to bed the day after I wake up. After two months. The perfect family. In the background there is a man, smiling, his arm is around a girl. Looks like me. Something else is familiar. Is it his expression? The way his hand grips her shoulder instead of resting on it? Rage. I smash the picture to the floor. The glass shatters. I tear his face from the picture, the rest floats to the ground. The woman cries. The doctor nods. I wonder if I care.
They release me a few weeks later to the woman. She tells me we are going home. He’s gone. He can’t hurt you anymore. Legally I don’t need to go with her. But I do. She tells me about myself. My boyfriend, our pregnancy. I look down at myself wondering how a child had ever been there. Where was it now?
I kept the torn photo of him in my pocket. Obsessed. It took me a month but I found him. Daddy, I look at him wasted. Why did you do it? I remember what you did to me now. But I am not like you.
Would you rather wake up not knowing who you are or not wake up at all? It kills me to see him like this, slumped in his chair, snoring softly, absolutely unaware. A broken glass is on the floor. The red wine will stain the carpet. I will allow my blood to enter the blend. In time they will replace the carpet. Still the stain of his sin and mine shall remain. I look at my cracked reflection in the mirror. One shot. I look at him and pull the trigger. I would rather not wake up at all.


The author's comments:
This was written for a school assignment. A short story in 500 words or less. I think it's the kind of story you need to read twice to understand the true meaning of what happens at the end. It's one of my favorite pieces

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yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 18 2009 at 7:58 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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good question. I think i was reading some sort of article on teen pregnancy or whatnot and then we had to write a short story for school and i chose that. But soon found it was common... so added a twist... :P the writer in me i guess

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 18 2009 at 7:56 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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yea, i had a few people who didn;'t get the ending but thank you very much :)

on Oct. 16 2009 at 3:51 pm
SilverAngel777 BRONZE, Three Rivers, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"Take life as it comes. Run when you have to, fight when you must, rest when you can."
-Elyas Machera, The Wheel of Time, By Robert Jordan

i loved it so much, how'd you think of this?

on Oct. 15 2009 at 9:09 pm
LeslieAnn BRONZE, Midvale, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
\\\\\\\"Dream as if you\\\\\\\'ll live forever, Live as if you\\\\\\\'ll die today\\\\\\\" \\\\\\\"Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain.\\\\\\\"

Absolutely amazing. You're right, I did have to read the ending twice. But I'm glad I did. The emotion is so intense, and I love the way you built up to it. You're amazing.

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 15 2009 at 7:34 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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that would be amazing :) thanks!

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 15 2009 at 7:33 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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thank you so much!!! thats awesome that you got it the first time round!

on Oct. 15 2009 at 3:00 pm
SilverAngel777 BRONZE, Three Rivers, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"Take life as it comes. Run when you have to, fight when you must, rest when you can."
-Elyas Machera, The Wheel of Time, By Robert Jordan

Oh my god, that's amazing, the raw emotion of it, the intensity, i love it, i even understood it the first time

katnip SILVER said...
on Oct. 14 2009 at 7:04 pm
katnip SILVER, Eureka, California
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Favorite Quote:
If you die in an elevator, be sure to push the Up button.

amazing iloved it def going to recomed it to some people

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 11 2009 at 9:52 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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i try :P thanks so much though! I love getting feedback

on Oct. 11 2009 at 9:04 pm
barbestbcb BRONZE, Brooklin, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them" - Walt Disney

Omg that was so sad... it was so inspiring and full of emotion! great job!

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 11 2009 at 3:41 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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I'm so happy that it's inspiring, that's amazing... i didn't think that :P

That's awesome the effect it had :)

yelnatz BRONZE said...
on Oct. 11 2009 at 3:41 pm
yelnatz BRONZE, Goodwood, Other
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thank you so much! that means so much to me :)

on Oct. 11 2009 at 1:49 pm
a_bunch_of_nuns, Unknown, Wisconsin
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I agree with SadieSalvation. Inspiration! *lightbulb*

You know, those questions really made me think. That is, the whole story made me think. I can understand why this is one of your favorite pieces. I really like it, too.

on Oct. 10 2009 at 7:51 pm
lostinsadie PLATINUM, Dexter, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Poetry should not mean, but be." UNKNOWN

This is absolutely brilliant, one of the best things I've ever read on here, or ever. Keep it up! You inspire me :)


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