War Opinion Letter

April 18, 2011
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My Dearest Darling Evelyn,

I love you so much. More than you can ever even begin to fathom. The day we said our vows was the happiest day of my life. Second only to the day your letter came telling me about the birth of our beautiful daughter Isabella. Seven pounds, eight ounces. I remember. Aren’t you proud of me for remembering? Please be proud, darling. No one is proud of me here. No one is proud of anyone fighting this pointless, pointless war.

Today I saw my first death. It was Adam. Yes, Adam from down the street. Adam from church. Amelia’s husband, Adam. He’s gone, Evelyn. He’s never coming back. God, he was so full of confidence. He thought he was going to be the last one standing. We all believed him too. Why wouldn’t we? He was always so strong. Even on the worst of days, he could find a reason to smile. I’m gonna miss him so much. How will the rest of the platoon get by without him? Why should I even bother going on, Evelyn? If Adam couldn’t make it through this war, none of us will. It’s over for me, baby. I’d rather die on my own terms than be brutally murdered by an enemy who doesn’t even understand why we’re here.

You see sweetheart, they told us at home that if we went into this war, we would come out heroes. They didn’t tell us that we would watch our friends and neighbors be blown to bits by hateful, wicked weapons of unimaginable force. They didn’t tell us that we wouldn’t be able to go home for our mothers’ funerals. No one said that we would be killing innocent people just because they lived in the same barely-habitable village as someone who might be Vietcong. No one told me that mothers would hand me their children strapped with bombs. Think about the look on a child’s face in that instant before the bomb goes off. Think of the desperation of the civilians. It makes me sick to my stomach. I can’t do it anymore, Evelyn. I’m not fighting for America anymore. I’m fighting for my sanity. Darling I haven’t slept in weeks and weeks. The dreams I have aren’t nightmares. They’re night terrors. I wake up screaming, sometimes sobbing, drenched in sweat that I can’t wash away because there’s no lake to bathe in nearby. All of my terrors are soaked in my skin. Even if I could wash them off, where would they go?

And after all that, no one is proud of us. I got a letter from a friend who went on R&R for a few days. He said he got spit on at the airport. Someone threw food at him and yelled obscenities at him. What kind of country do we live in? What kind of world is this, honey? I’ve killed people. There are people who have died; there are families who are in mourning because of a gun that I fired. I went through that mental torture for my ignorant, selfish country. I hope they’re happy. This is the end for me. Tell Isabella that I love her, and I wish I could’ve gotten to meet her. Don’t tell her about the horrors of war. Don’t let her ever find out. Protect my little princess no matter what.

Most importantly, Evelyn, please don’t ever doubt that you are and always were the love of my life. I don’t want to put you through the mental anguish that I’ve gone through when I get home. There’s a condition called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder that would keep me from living a normal life after I got home. You have a brand new baby to take care of. You can’t be responsible for me too. I’ll be there looking down on you every single night. I’ll keep you and Bella out of harm’s way. But by the time you get this letter, it’ll be too late. The gun that my dad gave me on our first hunting trip is sitting right on my left. Remember? I had you send it to me because the ones that they gave us were so unreliable. America is also unreliable. But my dad’s gun was always there when I needed it. I love you darling, and I hope you and Isabella live a very happy and fulfilling life. I can’t wait to watch it from heaven.
All my love,

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alex198 said...
May 7, 2011 at 9:28 am
I loved it! It was so sad but so believeble. It was written so beautifully and simply which added to the effect that this piece had on me. Amazing! :)
PaRaNoRmAl627 replied...
May 7, 2011 at 2:09 pm
sooo glad you liked itt! thank youu!
Grace4297 said...
May 5, 2011 at 8:28 am
I love this piece! It targets the ideas of war's negativities and compares it to the idea of a country as a whole. The names are realistic and the entire dialogue almost gives an old world tone. Very serious and powerful. Great Job!
PaRaNoRmAl627 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
May 5, 2011 at 10:56 am
thank you so much!!
AgnotTheOdd said...
May 3, 2011 at 9:55 pm
Well that was certainly cheerful.  I think it highlights pretty much all of the major issues of war very fluidly, meaningfully, and concisely, which seems to be a combination that is difficult to achieve, so for that I congratulate you.  I chose to comment on this one just because Im ridiculously anti-war, and this really speaks to that view point.  Hopefully this will change a jingo or two's mind.  Bravo.
PaRaNoRmAl627 replied...
May 8, 2011 at 2:43 pm
:D thankss!
PaRaNoRmAl627 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
May 1, 2011 at 10:30 am
yaayy thank you soo muchh :D
ArtemisHepburn said...
Apr. 30, 2011 at 10:53 pm

Oh my goodness!!! I almost started crying!!! This is so, so good!!!! I'm gonna bawl!!! Amazing, you NEED to be a writer!!!


Megan.J.B said...
Apr. 25, 2011 at 9:20 pm
You were right! This is fantastic. very interesting concept. Well done.
PaRaNoRmAl627 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 25, 2011 at 9:24 pm
yaaayy thank yoouu! <33
navishjaved said...
Apr. 25, 2011 at 6:39 pm

Plus, it's so sad that Michael knows that he's going to die. He knows that he won't come home and see his Evelyn and Isabella. That's just so sad! :'(

I like how you added, "I can't wait to watch it from heaven."


PaRaNoRmAl627 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 25, 2011 at 7:20 pm
awww thank you soo muchh! It means a lott :)
navishjaved said...
Apr. 25, 2011 at 6:38 pm

Awwwwh, this is soo sad. I was crying. Gosh, you should be a writer. Reading this, I totally understand what a soldier has to go through. I never knew that a soldier had such a difficult life. D: I'm thankful for all our soldiers.

I don't know why, but I always thought that soldiers were willing to fight for their country. Now that I have read this, I seem to realize that soldiers have ambitions, families, etc.

You deserve an A+++ on this, no joke! :D

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