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Can You Hear Me? MAG

March 16, 2009
By Tabitha-Mariah BRONZE, Ossipee, New Hampshire
Tabitha-Mariah BRONZE, Ossipee, New Hampshire
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The crowded hallway was swarming with voices, all uniting into one loud hum. Entangled in the roar was the sound of lockers opening and closing and, every once in a while, a teacher yelling over the clamor. I was standing in front of my locker, taking another look at my new schedule for the second semester. I have a bad memory for schedules. The lighting wasn't nearly bright enough. I strained to see the words, my own shadow blocking most of the light.

Is she just going to stand there all day? An irritated voice rang through my head. I looked over my shoulder. Ashley Garland was standing behind me, eyes glowering behind mascara-coated lashes, recently glossed lips parted slightly in an impatient scowl. She was waiting to get into the locker next to mine. I knew she hadn't spoken out loud, but I had heard her nonetheless. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I closed my locker and stepped out of her way.

With an exaggerated sigh, she slipped past me. Finally, her voice murmured in my head.

It started a year ago, this whole “hearing what other people think about me” thing. At first it was interesting, being able to see behind each fake smile and insincere “How are you?” But soon it got depressing. I had always known that people could be cruel, but I had no idea they were a thousand times worse in their heads. Why hold back if you don't think anyone will find out?

I'm not a mind reader. I don't know anybody's deep, dark secrets. I can't go looking through people's memories. I only hear what others think when it's about me. And, trust me, knowing how people really see you – well, it hurts.

I walked to homeroom with my head down, hoping no one would notice me as I slid into an empty chair. No such luck.

Shy girl should do something with her hair. I recognized Jessica Lander's voice.

You should burn that jacket, fatty. That had to be Faith Palmer. Hobos dress better than you.

I tried to block out the voices. I told myself over and over – as I had many times before – that it was just human nature, an automatic response; everyone does it. It didn't help.

Why'd she have to sit here? I looked to my right. This voice was coming from the guy at the desk next to mine: Josh Taylor. My eyes caught his. He looked away. She's so awkward.

Think of something else, I told myself. Don't let them get to you. They don't know you can hear them.

Anna looks like she's going to cry, I heard Matt Hammond scoff to himself. That'd be hilarious.

I slid down as far as I could in my chair and let my hair fall over my face. I wouldn't let them have the pleasure of seeing me fight back the hot flood threatening to fall from my eyes. No, I wouldn't give them that.

By the time lunch rolled around, I had no appetite. I ignored the long line of chattering students and discreetly took a seat at a table in the back. I pulled out some homework but was too stressed to focus. I decided to study the ceiling instead. The squares of fluorescent lights made a checkerboard; I hadn't noticed that before. The lights had a greenish tint and the longer you stared at them, the darker the room appeared. I was beginning to feel disoriented by the time the line to the kitchen was nearly gone. Tables were filling up and the noise around me grew louder.

I knew someone would notice me eventually. In the middle of the room a girl was looking for a place to sit, her head whipping around like a nervous bird. She glanced at my empty table, her eyes locking with mine. Apparently I was more intimidating than I realized. Not with her, she thought and somehow slid onto an already full bench.

I looked down at my table and ran my finger over its surface, tracing the fake wood grain.

Looks like someone's on a diet. Anorexic much? Faith Palmer again. What did she have against me? I watched out of the corner of my eyes as she nudged the girl next to her and signaled in my ­direction with a giggle. My hands balled into fists. I didn't want to deal with this, I endured enough already. I got up and grabbed my books just as thoughts from Faith's table started hitting me, each worse than the last. I ignored them as best I could and made my way to the bathroom. Call it hiding if you want, but I stayed there until lunch was over.

The rest of the day passed in pieces. Sometimes it felt as if time moved quickly. Sometimes it barely seemed to move at all. I was infuriated with myself. I had been dealing with this long enough that it shouldn't still hurt me. But every time I heard a voice in my head, I couldn't help but feel the sting. I didn't want to hear any of them ever again! What right did they have to judge me? Why should they pick out every little thing they didn't like about me? To make themselves feel more perfect? Probably. Those leeches! I hoped that they'd all grow old, alone, and ugly. And I hoped someone would remind them of it every day!

As I walked to my locker I fumbled furiously with my binder, checking my schedule one last time. So what was going to be my final torture of the day? Gym. My stomach twisted into a knot. Someone must really have had it in for me.

Dreading the locker room, the imminent mental remarks on my lack of coordination, the unsympathetic coach, I put away my books and slammed the locker. I felt numb as I walked to the gym. Each stride propelled me forward on stiff, quickly moving legs. I probably looked like a zombie. Everyone I passed was a blur. Every voice in my head was just background noise. I had finally snapped.

I can't remember what I was thinking when I got to the gym doors. I doubt I was thinking at all, which is probably why I walked right into them. My body slammed against the heavy metal and the force sent me reeling back. Next thing I knew, I was on the floor, my head spinning. I should have remembered they were pull doors.

To my despair, I was jolted out of my zombie-like trance. I could hear people laughing all around me. I was immediately bombarded by their thoughts. It was a cascade of voices. Some were a little concerned; most were hurtful. I noticed that some were even out loud.

I was trapped in a whirlwind, completely overwhelmed. I couldn't think, couldn't move. I had to force myself to breathe. I could hear my heart aching to explode. I wished it would. I wanted it to stop, stop letting me survive, stop beating, just let me go. Looking around at the swirling faces, I wondered why no one tried to help.

My throat dried up, getting tighter and tighter, as if someone was choking me. Tears burned my eyes, blurring the world. It hurt. I hurt. Those few moments felt like days. Time had decided to crawl, enjoying my suffering like everyone else.

I closed my eyes and everything went silent. I was free. No voices, no laughter, no staring eyes. Nothing. I let myself get swept away in it. So this was what it was like not to care? It felt like I was sleeping for the first time in my life. I was at peace.

“Hey, are you all right?” The voice sounded so far away. Someone was shaking my shoulder. “Somebody get the nurse.” I couldn't tell if the voice was out loud or in my head. I forced myself to look. A pair of nervous brown eyes slowly came into focus. Dark hair dangled around his face – a face that looked at me without scorn, without sneering, just looking, seeing me. “Can you hear me?”

I nodded, sending a jolt of pain through my skull and down my neck. I winced.

“Don't move,” he said. “I think you hit your head.” His eyes flitted around my face. “The nurse is coming.”

“It hurts.” My voice sounded pathetic.

“You might have a concussion,” he said. I agreed. My thoughts felt muddy. It was as if I were a little girl again – scared, confused. Through the mire of my mind a thought began to form: I didn't know what he was thinking.

My tongue betrayed my thoughts before I could stop it. “Why aren't you thinking something bad about me?”

He raised an eyebrow. “You don't think a concussion is bad?” he asked with a little chuckle. There was something in his eyes – maybe I was imagining it, but it looked like he was figuring something out.

I looked around. People were staring at me, looking anxious and concerned. They must have been thinking about me, but I couldn't hear them. A wave of relief melted over me. The voices were gone!

I looked back at the brown eyes. He looked so concerned. No one had ever looked at me like that. I wanted to thank him. He made me glad that my heart hadn't stopped. I felt silly, considering I had never met him before, but I decided that he was my personal angel.

He looked up. The nurse had arrived. “An ambulance is coming,” she said. “Everyone, go to your classes, please.”

The boy looked down at me, then up at the nurse, as if trying to decide what to do. Panic gripped my rattled brain. No! I didn't want him to ever go away. I needed him. He was the only one who had bothered to be nice; I couldn't lose him now. I grabbed his arm. “Don't leave,” I said. I felt connected to him even if I didn't know anything about him.

He smiled gently. “I won't.”

“I'm Anna,” I said, glad that I could remember my name.

“Ryan.”

While the nurse was busy checking if I was all right, I couldn't take my eyes off Ryan. His deep brown eyes locked with mine and for a moment I wished I could hear his thoughts. Just maybe for a minute. The way he looked at me – it was as if he was asking me something.

I heard sirens approaching.

Can you hear me, Anna? The gentle voice echoed in my head, taking me by surprise. It was his. Was it a memory or was I really hearing him?

Yes, I can hear you, I thought. If it is you.

A slow, gorgeous smile crept across his face. I knew you could.


The author's comments:
A short piece briefly introducing a full length story I'm working on.

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on Sep. 10 2010 at 12:36 pm
pinkypromise23 PLATINUM, Cranston, Rhode Island
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Favorite Quote:
i know that you believe you understand what you think i said, but im not sure you realize that what you heard is not what i meant.

h my god this is sooo good!!!! more!!!

MeggieGal said...
on Sep. 2 2010 at 5:45 pm
MeggieGal, Houston, Texas
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Oh my goodness! I LOVE this story! :D

on Aug. 31 2010 at 7:35 pm
theartgeek97 SILVER, Greenville, South Carolina
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I agree with "alex_ruby" MORE! MORE! This is so awesome it gave me chills! WOW! PLEASE WRITE MORE OF IT! I LOVE IT!

lalalalove said...
on Aug. 28 2010 at 5:51 pm
that was awesome fantastic piece of writing - though many books today also revolve around the same plot. give it a small twist here and there to set it apart a bit more and its PERFECT! impeccable job. love it:)

on Aug. 27 2010 at 10:48 pm
alex_ruby BRONZE, Southlake, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"There is no such thing as a bad piece of literature... it can just merely be unique"

-me

Wow!!! More! More!

 


on Aug. 27 2010 at 9:32 pm
InsaneKitten BRONZE, Miami, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
Even shadows need light..... "Melissa Marr, Ink Exchange" :D

DANG people r mean >:( and maybe because i could relate ive triped, i looked like an idiot, but to hear wat everyones really thinking bout u...... although she couldve use it to her advantage to get mysterious aura instead of dorky random girl and why is there always some random guy that pops out of nowhere? but its still amazingly interesting and i  cant wait to see more :D why is that in this and blah blah blah

on Aug. 27 2010 at 9:03 pm
Wow!!!!! I love that!!!!! u r really talented!

on Aug. 27 2010 at 8:27 pm
NightDayDreamer BRONZE, El Paso, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Live with courage; learn from the past, don't judge, be open; show caution but never hesitation, and always be yourself, yet show restraint when needed but never show fear, but courage in the face of adversity.

thats an awesome story keep it up. :]

on Aug. 27 2010 at 7:59 pm
TheMalfunctioningWallflower BRONZE, Houston, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"GET THE CAT!!!"

"I did wood paneling."

"Do not FEAR the Crooked Zipper!! EMBRACE the Crooked Zipper!!!"

"What's better than infinity?"

"Wear your helmets, we'll be reaching speeds of three!"

"You could walk on your hands and catch up to him!"

I've read this four times now and it is soooooooo gooooood!!!!!!!

on Aug. 27 2010 at 7:55 pm
BrightBurningCampeador PLATINUM, Portland, Oregon
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This is really good. Have you read the book Graceling? Anna's mindreading reminds me of Prince Po's Grace in that book.

on Aug. 27 2010 at 5:45 pm
Annabelle294 SILVER, Branford, Connecticut
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I love this story, it's so original, and  captivating.

on Aug. 27 2010 at 1:23 pm
In_Love_Loved PLATINUM, Concord, New Hampshire
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Favorite Quote:
"I've lost my faith in so many things but I still believe in you." -Sanctus Real

I REALLY LIKE THIS! PLEASE KEEP WRITING.

on Aug. 27 2010 at 1:21 pm
R-Sharky BRONZE, Brooklyn, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." - Howard Thurman

It reminds me of Evermore...

on Aug. 27 2010 at 9:49 am
ilovetinkerbell GOLD, Raytown, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
Be yourself!!!

I love this. Great job on expressing your feelings. I recently inrolled in public school. I have been homeschooled for 8 years and going to school feels like the story. :)

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on Aug. 25 2010 at 4:07 pm
Runner242 GOLD, Rochester, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live." - Dumbledore

This is awesome! keep writing!!

on Aug. 19 2010 at 1:25 pm
Annalibelle BRONZE, Elmsford, New York
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Mind reading is a commonly used premise but this is certainly an interrestiong twist on it. I like your "rules" of magic/powers, the ways that its almost like a curse. The cut off was at a good point as well. If this was in a full lenghth novel, I'd say the hero swoops in too soon, but in a short story, the timing is perfect. The prose is descriptive, but no too purple.

Overall, good job


on Aug. 18 2010 at 2:24 am
AislinnKnight BRONZE, Saratoga Springs, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
If you don't like me, remember it's mind over matter. I don't mind, and you don't matter.

Wow. This was awesome!!! I hope you write more.

on Aug. 16 2010 at 12:31 pm
kielymarie SILVER, Sandy Hook, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
"When you do dance, I wish you a wave 'o the sea, that you might never do nothing but that." -William Shakespeare

Incredible. This is perfect. Great job!

on Aug. 12 2010 at 4:56 pm
Dreams4Ever GOLD, Broken Arrow, Oklahoma
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Wow...You have talent! That was so amazing!

on Aug. 6 2010 at 12:02 am
Ellawind PLATINUM, Seattle, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.

Dream like you will live forever, live like you will die today.

THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!!! I love reading stories where the main character can read minds. It's so fun to read (and write!) everyone's thoughts, because that's something hardly anyone can do in reality. The end was surprising and sweet. I loved the whole thing! Please write more! :)