i look down a long hallway, i see nothing but silver walls and a bright white light. i can't remember anything except fire and screatching metal. not my birthday, my parent's faces, or even my own name show any presance in my mind. i keep walking, my bare feet smacking against the cold stone floor. at the end of the hallway is a door with light comming in through the gaps around it's frame. as i get closer, the door seams farther away. i try to run, but i could be running backwards for all the help it gives. i fall to the floor, still being dragged backwards by some unseen force. i try to grab for something, anything, but the smooth floor and walls give me nothing to hold on to. i continue to slide down the hallway, faster and faster until i disapear from where i was. i see nothing, nothing but total darkness. i can hear beeping and shallow breathing, but nothing else. i feel cold all over, but i can't do anything about it. i try to get up, to move, to grab for a blanket, but my body is unresponsive. my body feels heavy and cold, it's as if my skin is made of stone and ice. i hear foot steps, quiet at first, but getting louder. i hear voices, but i can't understand the words. i scream, but i am not sure if the voices heard me. i try to get up, i try to regain controle. i feel my hands forming fists, the voices get louder. i can understand the words now, they are saying that i am to far gone, that i won't make it. they hadn't heard my scream, they hadn't seen my fists clench. "I am alive, i am here!" i wanted to yell. the voices couldn't hear my silent screams. they started talking about how i was alive, but just barley. how i was in a coma and they never exspected to wake up. they started talking about uthenasia, about a poison that would be painless and i would die quickly and be at peace. i hear sobbing, sobbing that must be comming from my mother that i can remember nothing about. i open my eyes just as i feel a needle sliding into my flesh. everything goes black once again, and weather the voices knew it or not, they just apsent mindedly commited murder.
the blackness and the hallway
January 24, 2012