I find myself spending a lot of time alone. Sitting in deserted niches, studying the walls of the bathroom stalls, even crawling into dark places where no one can find me. I feel the solitary side of me becoming more dominant, and I can feel myself losing the confidence I gained when starting high school. The library’s silent depths win over listening to my friends laugh, and the pool is less of a social circle and more a solitary abyss to slowly drown myself in.
September 13, 2011