I am trapped forever, in eternal darkness. There is no up or down. Left or right. There are no others...only myself and the bugs that pick and eat at my flesh and bones.
But even in the darkness, I can still feel. I feel his cool hands, softly wrap around my throat. The tears burning hot, as they run down my face. My throat getting tighter as he squeezes harder, growing more hoarse as I beg him to stop. I'm crumpling to the floor, the life draining from me...and then there's nothing. Then I come here, refusing the gates of heaven, because I don't deserve to be there.
I roam the eternal darkness feeling and reliving, that moment...it will never end...