Just Friends MAG

By Jessika Rieck, Keller, TX

Final class of the day; I’m almost done. I’ve managed to avoid him for the majority of the day, somehow escaping his attempts at conversation. Always somewhere to go, something to do. Sorry, no time to chat. If I can just stay out of sight for the next fifteen minutes, I’ll be home free.

Rushing into the crowded hall, I push through the swarm of buzzing students. I fight against the flow of bodies, the warm crush that threatens to overwhelm me. Desperate, I keep shoving, longing to reach the safety and quiet of my locker. I’m almost there, just a bit further. Finally I’ve made it, and he’s nowhere in sight.

I open my locker and lean into it, sighing with relief, when I see him. I straighten up, hurriedly shoving everything into that tiny metal box, but my hands aren’t cooperating. My nerves are making me shake, disconnecting my mind from the rest of my body. I struggle to remove myself from the impending situation, but as I start to spring away, he grabs my arm and says, “Now can I talk to you?”

And that’s when my heart sinks. My stomach starts to churn and I know nothing will be the same again.

Somehow I always knew it would come down to this moment. A silent showdown in some empty hallway, the echo of slamming lockers long since faded, but the shouts of students still lingering in the air. He stares at me, expectantly, awaiting an answer. I look at my feet, purposely not listening, not looking at him. I don’t want to hear it, don’t want to see him proclaim his love. It makes no difference; it doesn’t change the situation.

I’ve known him since first grade. I’ve seen him pick his nose and suck at kickball; I watched him grow six inches like a beanstalk and, with all the grace of a newborn calf, give himself a concussion on a shower head. We’ve been friends for what seems like always, but never ventured anywhere beyond that. To be honest, it never occurred to me that he could someday be more than a friend.

“Did you hear me? I said I like you. I like you a lot.”

Don’t say that. Anything but that. Talk to me about the weather, how horrible Mrs. Matthews is with her evil calculus equations. Even sports would be better, (and you know how much I hate sports). Just don’t say those words. Why would you say something that could irreversibly change our friendship?

“I’ve liked you for so long. Didn’t you know?”
Yes, of course I knew. I’m not stupid. I was – I don’t know – I guess I was hoping it was just a crush. Something fleeting, a passing fancy. Puppy love, if you must, but apparently not.

“Say something, anything.”

You don’t mean that, not really. I know what you’re hoping to hear, what you want me to say. I can’t and I won’t. I look at you and I see a brother, a friend, not a boyfriend. I don’t think anything could ever change that in my mind.

Everyone knew we’d end up here. That’s the rub. The whole freaking world probably knew that sooner or later we would clash at opposite ends of the spectrum. My parents, my friends. Hell, even your parents and friends knew it. They told me it was cruel to lead you on, but I never meant to. I never meant for it to go this far; it just never seemed like the right time to say, “Hey, we’ll always be best friends.” I never, ever wanted to hurt you; I just didn’t want to let you go.

I’ve deluded myself for years, lived in denial for so many summers, and now it’s senior year and you’ve finally found the courage to tell me how you feel. I’d love to blame you for this awkwardness, accuse you of letting this non-relationship charade drag on over the years. But truthfully, it’s my fault that we’ve reached this point, and I have to make things right.
I take a deep breath. This is it.

“Yeah. Me too.”



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writeon said...
on Dec. 9 2010 at 2:06 pm

This story is AMAZING !!! I loved the descriptions. It gave me a total insider to what the character was going through.

 


on Dec. 9 2010 at 1:09 pm
LegandInTheMaking BRONZE, Wellston, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"i may not have the prettest face for oyu to look at, or the skinnest waist for you to hold, but i do have the biggest heart for you to have!!"

very good! i like the twist at the end.. i hope you continue writing!

britty66 said...
on Dec. 9 2010 at 12:58 pm
sweet i like how u wrote

on Dec. 9 2010 at 12:49 pm
Lombardi1_ SILVER, Nokomis, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
Never make someone a priority, when all you are to them is an option.

I LOVE This  Story!!! <33333 It Was Better Than Anything I've Read In A While <3 Good Job.

on Dec. 9 2010 at 11:58 am
SkyLane PLATINUM, Scituate, Massachusetts
25 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
never regret anything that once made you smile.

this is so good! not the ending i expected-- but amazing. fabulous job!

on Dec. 9 2010 at 9:56 am
bookworm77 BRONZE, Emporia, Kansas
3 articles 0 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile." Mark Twain

I loved this! it wasn't the typical "crush" story. the twist at the end was great and the perspective of the character was genius! way to go :)

on Dec. 9 2010 at 7:06 am
skyblue95 PLATINUM, Bear, Delaware
35 articles 1 photo 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
I am paraphrasing, of course. "My only fear is that when they are turned to loving they will find we are turned to hating." -Reverand Msimangu, Cry, The Beloved Country (a book by Alan Paton)

amazing. i kno its just 1 word, BUT AMAZING :)

on Dec. 7 2010 at 11:08 am
The story was off the heeze it was awesome i really luved it but could added more deatils

Erin32 said...
on Nov. 17 2010 at 4:55 pm
Ok, first its great and second keep writing!!

on Nov. 17 2010 at 3:37 pm
writingrocks GOLD, Brooklyn, New York
16 articles 23 photos 145 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You have to learn to love yourself before you learn to love others."

love it.... though the first sentence is a bit confusing.... anyways, sooooo romantic!!!!!

on Nov. 17 2010 at 12:46 pm
emmernemmer PLATINUM, Stockton, California
25 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"the pen is mightier than the sword"

SOOOO GOOD!

mr.suit said...
on Nov. 17 2010 at 11:00 am
HEY THERE WAT UP DIG DOG

on Nov. 17 2010 at 10:36 am
thisiswhatiwant. BRONZE, Apex, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"if i cant handle you at your low points i dont deserve you at your high points do i??" -bffl

amazing. i really like this.

 


on Nov. 17 2010 at 10:29 am
Tolstoy17 SILVER, Whitehall, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
\"Everything you do in life will be insignificant, but it\'s important that you do it.\" Gandhi.

Tag as favorite?

Done.


on Nov. 16 2010 at 2:27 pm
MidnightWriter SILVER, Ontario, Other
6 articles 0 photos 225 comments

Favorite Quote:
Writers are a less dangerous version of the career criminal. Everywhere they go, they see the potential for the perfect crime. The difference is that writers have better self control.

Nice story. I like it, but that girl made a stupid choice. I know from experince.

on Oct. 26 2010 at 7:29 pm
Gabiiiii BRONZE, Independence, Oregon
4 articles 1 photo 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
"In a world where billions believe their deity conceived a mortal child with a virgin human, it's stunning how little imagination most people display." --Chuck Palahnuik

I like how the end is a total surprise.

You don't get a lot of surprise endings, so i love when they stumble along. Great job.


Gadzooks GOLD said...
on Oct. 26 2010 at 5:12 pm
Gadzooks GOLD, Kentwood, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Handle everything as gentle as you can. And what you cannot put right, you must make as little wrong as possible." Thomas Moore

i think this is amazing. i love the flow!

on Oct. 26 2010 at 5:03 pm
JayeMizzles GOLD, Paris, Other
12 articles 0 photos 13 comments

Favorite Quote:
Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.- Oscar Wilde

i really like this story.... i love the repetition, the vocab and most of all, i can relate to it really easily!! :) great job...only one question (a dumb one :/ ) when she says "yeah me too." does that mean she likes him back? or something else? 

RedNeck SILVER said...
on Oct. 26 2010 at 1:59 pm
RedNeck SILVER, Nooksack, Washington
6 articles 1 photo 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
KEEP LOOKING UP KID!!!~Bernard
THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY WHEN IT STOPS HURTING!!!!~BERNARD

WOW! that way a good paper!

on Oct. 26 2010 at 12:15 am
AussiMusicLover BRONZE, Central Coast, Other
4 articles 1 photo 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams
The hottest love has the coldest end.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop
Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.

Lol ima gonna use ur advice too.. sounds smart ;)


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