Just Friends MAG

By Jessika Rieck, Keller, TX

Final class of the day; I’m almost done. I’ve managed to avoid him for the majority of the day, somehow escaping his attempts at conversation. Always somewhere to go, something to do. Sorry, no time to chat. If I can just stay out of sight for the next fifteen minutes, I’ll be home free.

Rushing into the crowded hall, I push through the swarm of buzzing students. I fight against the flow of bodies, the warm crush that threatens to overwhelm me. Desperate, I keep shoving, longing to reach the safety and quiet of my locker. I’m almost there, just a bit further. Finally I’ve made it, and he’s nowhere in sight.

I open my locker and lean into it, sighing with relief, when I see him. I straighten up, hurriedly shoving everything into that tiny metal box, but my hands aren’t cooperating. My nerves are making me shake, disconnecting my mind from the rest of my body. I struggle to remove myself from the impending situation, but as I start to spring away, he grabs my arm and says, “Now can I talk to you?”

And that’s when my heart sinks. My stomach starts to churn and I know nothing will be the same again.

Somehow I always knew it would come down to this moment. A silent showdown in some empty hallway, the echo of slamming lockers long since faded, but the shouts of students still lingering in the air. He stares at me, expectantly, awaiting an answer. I look at my feet, purposely not listening, not looking at him. I don’t want to hear it, don’t want to see him proclaim his love. It makes no difference; it doesn’t change the situation.

I’ve known him since first grade. I’ve seen him pick his nose and suck at kickball; I watched him grow six inches like a beanstalk and, with all the grace of a newborn calf, give himself a concussion on a shower head. We’ve been friends for what seems like always, but never ventured anywhere beyond that. To be honest, it never occurred to me that he could someday be more than a friend.

“Did you hear me? I said I like you. I like you a lot.”

Don’t say that. Anything but that. Talk to me about the weather, how horrible Mrs. Matthews is with her evil calculus equations. Even sports would be better, (and you know how much I hate sports). Just don’t say those words. Why would you say something that could irreversibly change our friendship?

“I’ve liked you for so long. Didn’t you know?”
Yes, of course I knew. I’m not stupid. I was – I don’t know – I guess I was hoping it was just a crush. Something fleeting, a passing fancy. Puppy love, if you must, but apparently not.

“Say something, anything.”

You don’t mean that, not really. I know what you’re hoping to hear, what you want me to say. I can’t and I won’t. I look at you and I see a brother, a friend, not a boyfriend. I don’t think anything could ever change that in my mind.

Everyone knew we’d end up here. That’s the rub. The whole freaking world probably knew that sooner or later we would clash at opposite ends of the spectrum. My parents, my friends. Hell, even your parents and friends knew it. They told me it was cruel to lead you on, but I never meant to. I never meant for it to go this far; it just never seemed like the right time to say, “Hey, we’ll always be best friends.” I never, ever wanted to hurt you; I just didn’t want to let you go.

I’ve deluded myself for years, lived in denial for so many summers, and now it’s senior year and you’ve finally found the courage to tell me how you feel. I’d love to blame you for this awkwardness, accuse you of letting this non-relationship charade drag on over the years. But truthfully, it’s my fault that we’ve reached this point, and I have to make things right.
I take a deep breath. This is it.

“Yeah. Me too.”



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If this happened to you, I know what you mean.  But it still was such a great story, I felt like I was really there! 

on Aug. 16 2012 at 7:29 pm
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What a great story!!! I love everything about this!! One of my favourites!

on Aug. 16 2012 at 11:46 am
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did this really happen to you? Anyways, it's great writing

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Wow! This was awesome! It described all the emotions and thoughts perfectly! I felt like I was there witnessing the entire event.

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Wow, this is really good! I really liked it!

on Jun. 11 2012 at 5:11 pm
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Is it a real story? So curious...

 


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This was a beautifully written story. I loved it! :)

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on Apr. 28 2012 at 6:26 pm
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Very good, I just wish I couldn't relate to him...

 


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on Apr. 6 2012 at 2:51 pm
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I love this, so brilliant.  Keep it up.

on Apr. 6 2012 at 9:52 am
chloejane SILVER, Gatton Australia, Other
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Favorite Quote:
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After reading the second last paragraph it states that she is living in dinal about liking her friend

 

im not sure if i am right or not but that is the way i am seeing it


on Mar. 15 2012 at 9:45 pm
otherpoet SILVER, Wayland, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone." - Audrey Hepburn

So impressive! I love the way you talk to the reader, it makes it relateable and fun! Great job!

on Mar. 15 2012 at 3:54 pm
BrittyMS DIAMOND, Fort Wayne, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
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The way I took it was that she felt bad for leading him on, so she felt obligated to go out with him. But that's just how I understood it.

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on Feb. 18 2012 at 7:55 pm
aem312 BRONZE, Richmond, Massachusetts
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I was confused too. Otherwise I thought it was good.

sara11 said...
on Jan. 31 2012 at 8:57 pm
I think alot of people can relate to this story. Often girls or even guys will find themselves in this position and feel that exact way and just not know what to say. I like how the writing is shows exactly what shes feeling on the inside.

on Jan. 31 2012 at 8:10 pm
laurensoccer SILVER, Palm Beach Gardens, Florida
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I love this piece and I am so touched. You are an amazing writer and keep up the amazing work!!!!

on Jan. 31 2012 at 5:23 pm
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Favorite Quote:
I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe in miracles. ~Audrey Hepburn

I've read this article a couple of times, and this though comes up up in my head every single time. Author, if you see this, could you please respond and tell us what actually happened, because I am genuanlly interested.

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on Jan. 31 2012 at 4:16 pm
Lletya BRONZE, Aurora, Colorado
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I don't really get it. Did she like him and tell him the truth, or was she too scared to hurt him and lie?




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