The bottomless pit that I long to escape swallows me whole. The constant humiliation cast by the people I call friends was enough to drive me deeper into the pit but as I see your loving eyes I fight harder to get out. The pit was pulling me deeper and deeper with its unknown force that is caused from my mistakes. With every bitter lies that slides between my teeth and the unmistakable harm I caused for so much people, I sink deeper. It’s you that keeps me fighting out of the unbearable pit and as soon as you walk away, all the motivations inside me is lost and there is no more hope. I fight no more, and may the pit swallow me whole and relieve the world because without me, they will suffer no longer.
July 27, 2009